Lies
Thursday, March 24, 2011
well. i guess by now alot of people may
think that i am lying. i wont be surprise.
i say that my ankle is hurting, but i still
do alot of stunts and run around. but i am
really not lying.
i chose to continue all the activities for a
reason. rather den resting and letting ur
brain noe tat the part is injure, y not work
it some more so tat ur body will produce
natural painkillers to numb the pain? at
least i can continue and try to tank till
the end so as to not let my teammate down.
well. lets hope tat my ankle hold tmr.
keep getting way recently and almost falling
everyday.
mayb i will put pressure on it later. but for
now, lets have a picture to cheer everyone up.

May everyday is a Sunny day!~
Results
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
HOHO!~ today results release. didnt expect tat
the module which my HDD crash on me de got a
distinction!~ well. kinda happy and yet, sad
too. i feel tat many ppl take their results too
seriously. i noe u must b thinking. its the
results. it determine where u go. but i always
tell those around me. at the end of the day,
the result slip is just a piece of paper. nothing
more, nothing less. it is just a piece of paper
tat allows u to further ur studies. but tat
piece of paper cant get u to the end of the world.
in the end, at least to me, experience overthrows
any piece of paper.
so ppl. dun get too down becos u didnt score well.
u should b proud of urself cos u noe u did ur best.
dun care wad others tell u. cos they are in no
position to do so as u r hu u r. u shouldnt say tat
oh! my parent say if i fail i cant go anywhere. NO!
its ur life! choose who you wan to be and not who
u do not wan to be.
many people tell me singapore no industry but i still
carry on dreaming. i, have a dream. i dream to one
day, set up my own gaming empire. dun let others laugh
at ur dream. there is no such thing call foolish or
stupid dreams. dreams are something which u should be
proud of and uphold. dream, is life itself.
May everyday is a Sunny day!~
Monday, March 21, 2011
tmr we will all be getting our result.
hope tat my GPA went up. to everyone out there,
u did ur best. dun regret wadever u have done.
May everyday is a Sunny day!~
thoughts
Sunday, February 20, 2011
its been quite a long time since i last blog.
so many things happen but im not gona address
all of them.
recently, so many of my peers are saying that
they are giving up and staying back one more
year in poly. its so frustrating to hear these
words. i feel so helpless and stupid cos i cant
do anything to help them cos we are from different
courses. and even if i can help them, i can only
do very little. sometimes i really think.
what for i learn so much stuff when its all just
basic knowledge. whats the use of learning so
many things and to find out that what you
learn is nothing. since we were fated to mean,
i wan all of us to move on together. my motto,
one for all, all for one. i hate to leave others
to die alone. i really hate it. but im just a
stupid idiot. whenever i try to push someone,
i feel that i am just hurting them more. i wish
to help other carry their burdens and ease their
pain and yet i am putting weights on their shoulder.
sometimes i wish i could just stay in the darkness
and just observe. but thats totally not my style.
when i see my peers in need, i just have to help
them even if they dun ask. im a idiot. what ever
i've done, im stupid. i cant even help others get
their confident back. i cant even help them with
their work.
they say, the first step of helping others is to
open yourself to others. but till now, my heart is
still closed. i choose to lock my heart so others
would think that i could be a pillar for them to
relay on. i was wrong. even the strongest pillar
will fall one day. its only a matter of time.
even volcano erupt when there is too much pressure.
but i cant reveal myself. theres nothing for me to
grab hold on when i fall.
it sucks to keep everything in. but this is the path
which i choose to take. theres no point in regreting
or what so ever.
lets screw this whole shit and put it aside. its
just me complaining to this blog where no one reads.
well, when traveling to and fro sch, i tend to think
alot. think about many many things and i plan these
things. it isnt wrong to plan early rite? cos it let
me imagine what the event or item will look like. and
planning early allows me to foresee the problems.
some people think that i just think too much. and i
love to put the blame on myself. well, since you give
me the task of planning the event, i feel responsible
for everything which cock ups during the event. things
wont go the way that you wanted it.
im gonna stop here. i find no point in complaining here
anymore. i have no idea what to type and what i am typing
anymore. i should cool my head.
i'm just too freaking useless and irresponsible.maybe this may cheer me up.
お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...
beautiful hangover
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
last sunday was fun!~
went to tenko concert with my club mates.
basically tenko is a daiko group in sg.
at there i found my reason. well, u dun have
to noe wad it is =]
after the concert, we went to eat and shop
together. it was fun and enjoyable except for
some parts. i still dun get y he wanna exile
himself.
never the less. yesterday was funny cos every
monday lesson was acting class so basically
we just play for 3 hours. den me and my fren
have the hokkien and cantonese session again.
it was every funny. every1 of us xiao dao
stomachache. if possible u guys can come crash
the class.
yesterday, tat guy commented on the tenko concert.
he said tat the movement wasnt tat sharp. well,
if u r a good player, i wont say anything but u r
just some shitty half-ass player hu cant even get
a single song rite and u like tat say others. if u
wanna comment on others pls think about urself first.
do u have the rights or not. u cant play well and u
wanna comment on others hu play hell lot better den
u. i give u one advise. go jia sai and reflect upon
urself.
well. lets not let idiots spoil the mood shall we?
today, the noose came to my sch block and film. my
fren is a big fan of them so i ask him to go down
but he dun wan. den he tell me he very sad. he says
its like i see sunny but cannot go take photo with
her. well, for me if i like some1, i would be just
happy to be able to watch her from far. so i dun
really understand how he feels. well, i should be
doing my work now =] until next time.
oh oh! u must be thinking why my post is called
beautiful hangover. its because the hangover from
these few days are the best ever! its tiring and
i still recovering from the "emptiness", its the
best experience ever. i get to see alot of stuff
much more clearly now.
お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...
Friday, January 21, 2011
once again, im back to blogging. feeling freaking
tired these few days. i have no idea wads gone into
me. every i do is just not right. mayb its the sway
season. alwell, moving on. the past 2 days of bus trip
back home was hell.
on wed, there is this drunkard who
boarded the bus. as he is drunk, he cant stand properly.
so he keep swaying and hitting people. den after that, he
came and sit beside me. he keep pating my hands la -.-
den i walk off and he kick me. knn. den he sleep on the chair.
got old man wan sit also cannot. ccb. u like tat sleep cos
so much trouble. the bus keep stopping and my 20- 30min trip
become 1 hour. reach home late liao la. wan do my stuff also
cannot. too tired to work.
yesterday, there is this crazy idoit. i have no idea whats
going on as i was on the second floor with earpiece on. and
once again, the bus keep stopping. but this time, tat idoit
keep slamming the door den the bus driver stop the bus.
COMPLELELY. ccb. nid to wait till the police come before the
driver let us out to another bus cos tat bastard wan to escape
after i think assualting some1.
why da heck are these kind of stupid things happening to me.
im already freaking tired and i have no idea whats going on
with me and yet these kind of things happen around me to
irrate me even more. how i wish tat i can bash them up. but
they nvr assualt me first so i cant touch them. cb.
other then tat, as we noe i my monday lesson is for playing
games. so i keep preparing games to let them play. but den
i its like i tired so hard to prepare the games for u all to
play and i noe u all are tired. but why u all have to give me
the freaking sian look and reject all the game offer. we all
same course same class 1 lor. i now how u all are feeling also.
also recently. when people smile at me, i can feel that they
are grining undereneath that smile. stop looking down on me
can or not. i noe i cannot do alot of things. everything i do
is just not good enough. so wad. i still trying rite, not like
some idiots who quit halfway. so stop giving me the smile which
is just trying to entertain me.
screw this whole shit.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...
Christmas Daikonia
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
hoho continuing from yesterday XD
on the 23rd of dec, a thurs, we had
our daiko christmas party =]
well, its not exactly what i have planed and had
in mind because i was in korea having my study
trip thus i pass the planning to my frens and it
just turn out to be like that. so i become kind of
a guest in the event.
the whole event started out decorating the club house.
we turn the club house into this and everyone were
happy.


carrying on, we played the first game. everybody were
very happy. till the first person got the forfeit.
basically the whole game is a forfeit game. den she
not happy that she kana. den dun wan to do the forfeit.
i noe the forfeit mayb a bit harsh but den its like
awhile only. plus u always so anti social one. do one
forfeit wont die rite? so in the end we skip her and carry
on. after that game, we play wack a pinata. i ask them
to warp onlyl ike 5 layers. in the end they warp
20 plus layers -.- the whole thing become as hard as
rock la. in the end we cut it open with a pen knife.
after that we went BBQ at moberly =] it was fun.
first time BBQ dun nid cook got food eat. haha.
but till now, everything was not what i have in mind.
it could be better. but, as long as everyone's
happy, im okay with it. by right, during and after
the bbq session we plan to play games. but in the
end some of them went to moberly to play wii. so
its another thing which is not on my checklist.
so the place went cold. and quiet. and we never
really get to sit down together and tok.
for me, im okay as long as the others are happy.
but i think it would be nicer if everyone stayed
and play games at the pit area. well. its over now.
no point whining over something that is over.
but overall, its fun. i will update on sch life tmr.
but now, i can barely keep my eyes open so...
good nite and sweet dreams.
its been years since i have my last dream and
i am still trying to dream. if only i could
dream again.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...
Life till now
Monday, January 17, 2011
its been a awhile since i last blog XD
been busy with school work u see.
well first i will talk about the korean
study trip which i had and den daiko
christmas party. after that will b on
sch den some of the stuff i had in mind
for this yr concert.
oh!~ i nvr said this b4 but my club will
be having another concert this yr!~ i hope.
not really comfirmed yet.
anyway XD lets turn the time back to 13 dec09
it was early in the morning like... 3 am,
had to wake up and get ready to go to the
airport. my lecturer is crazy. ask us to meet
at 5 in the morning -.-
so reach there liao wait for my fren to reach.
den is keep waiting lor. till like 7.30
den check in to take plane.
tis is like my second time taking a plane.
(counting that to and fro is 1 time)
well. tio scam about the flight too! at first
my lecturer said is korean airline den go there
liao found out is singapore airline -.- ji tao
sian 3quater la. on the plane also quite boring
keep playing PSP and tetris with my fren. den
nvr sleep. total like sleep only 2hours plus nia.
so i shall skip till reach incheon airport.
ITS TOTALLY AWESOME! EVERYTHING IS IN KOREAN!~
first thing that my fren said to me is,
"BOBBY! SNSD!" den after that he said "BOBBY!
SUNNY OVER THERE!" totally sian diao la -.-
but its fun la. to have like ppl teasing u about
the thing tat u like.
the interesting thing there is that there are alot
of boxes mark with a "?" although till now i still
have no idea what those boxes are, but who cares XD
fast forwarding abit, we met our tour guide, BRYAN!~
hes a funny guy. noes korean, chinese and english!~
AWESOME!~ NO LANGUAGE BARRIER WAHAHAHAHAHA!~
den its finally time to go out to board the bus.
i tell u ar, tat time i only wearing 1 polo T and
1 jeans and shoes with normal socks. once the door
open ar and the cold air blow onto me. its epic.
the temperature is like -4 degree. den i stand down
there for like a few minutes. cos nid to load the suitcase
on the bus. freaking cold i tell u. but it was fun =]
breathing onto ur fren face cos when u breathe got
the smoke. den is the bus trip to SEOUL!~ WOOHOO FINALLY!
its a 1 hour plus trip. the only thing i wan to say
about their transport in winter is that, they never on
aircon. den the whole bus damn warm and stuffy.
but lucky i sit at the back got 1 door can open 1 at
the top of the bus. so we open abit and let the cold
air in XD damn fun. den after that around 5 plus korea
time we reach moi studio. its a animation studio. den
we see some of their artiste work. its like nothing u have
ever seen. now days animator do all the drawing on computer
but they hand drawn everything. 1 second 25 drawing. and
each animation last like 20-30 min. count how many drawing
liao. den each animation got like min 12 ep. thats ALOT!
it really motivate you but at the same time demotivate you cos
they are very hard working but den the quality is like i cannot
reach one la T^T and every staff gets their own personal space
den i notice tat alot of 2ne1 poster =]
after tat we went to a restaurant for dinner. it was a every
epic night XD becos of jellyfish. so basically its a hot pot
buffet. all you can eat. den we took alot of meat cos meat
is like the only thing there. they serve alot of meat. its
a meat lover heaven XD so i shall skip to the jelly fish part.
at first we tot that it will taste the same as sg. but we were
wrong. i took a big bite and i could hardly swallow it. it taste
horrible. its like wasabi mix with vinegar or something. den i
ask my fren try. he also cannot take it. so ask another person
to try. also cannot handle. den got 1 guy say he try liao not bad
with the noodle. den he just eat the jelly fish only. also cannot
tahan. so left 2 guy at the table. they hear us say until they
dun dare eat. so we ask them to just eat 1 piece and they did
at first they say okay den after biting for awhile, the flavor
burst out and they tear. its very funny cos their face suddenly
change. so tat sums up the first day in korea. OH OH! i also
wan to add that we got scam by the guide. he say go nearby
store to stock up on what we nid. den i only wear shorts with a
t shirt and jacket. den he bring us take the train to some place.
damnit sia. got to brave the cold with shorts!
and only a DMIT jacket.
day 2. today was a sunny day. like day 1, but even colder.
its around -9degee today. the first stop is to a filming studio
we get to see many awesome miniatures and a 3d clip. well, in
the end we didnt manage to watch the clip cos theres something
wrong with the projector and the staff keep saying sorry to us
in korean. but we noe its not her fault. but she look very sad.
alwell. after tat, we went outdoor and brave the cold. its a
good thing that we went out cos we get to see a village. a
actual village that were used to film gu dai xi. XD damn nice la
the detail. although the roof was made from Styrofoam XD that
is also the day where everybody nose keep running XD fun to see
like 18 red nose people walking together. after the visit, its
time to eat lunch. its the MOST AWESOME LUNCH we had in korea.
basically its a hotpot =] but theres something else tat make
it awesome. SUNNY ATE THERE BEFORE!!! AND I SIT DIRECTLY OPPOSITE
HER SIGNATURE AND PHOTO!!! wah!~ ji tao melt. nicest meal ever.
after tat we went to dongwoo animation studio. u noe ar, another
studio visit. den after tat, we when to dong da men and settle our
meal there and its the first place with i spent money. POSTERS AND
CALENDAR XD on! for dinner we had bibimbap. sry dunno how to spell.
and thats day 2. not snowing yet, everyone thinks it wont snow but
i still had a feeling that it will snow. OH! and btw, i was shocking
everything which i touch. so every1 dun dare stand near me T^T
day3, morning is another studio visit, sunwoo entertainment animation
studio. at there, we met 3 singaporean and they share with us some of
their work experience there. it was fun. and they show us many nice
animations. after that, we went to a art street where we had our lunch
and so on. i brought korean crackers there. the person making the
cracker was awesome. we cant even leave our hands bare in the cold wind
for more den a few seconds where we have to pay the money but they
made the cracker with any gloves O.O their hand really damn cold
resistant la. had ramen there. I WAN TO EAT RICE CAKE T^T alwell,
its over now. den we move on to visit a korean palace. ITS FREAKING
BIG! AND AWESOME! the engineering and the design, to every detail,
the builder of the past must have really though of it all. its perfect
in every expect. the way it keep the place warm in the winter, the
structure. its wonderful. after that, we had dinner at a... i cant rmb
XD but thats it for day 3. day 4 is just plain boring cos we went to
visit siggraph asia which is something like a animation festival.
and at the basement of the building(coex) there is a aquarium. cool
isit it. but the price is nicer. its like 20 plus SGD to go in there
of cos we nvr went in but we sneak into the gift shop and have a look.
the only two thing interesting on day 4 is that during dinner, we ate
a freaking spicy noodle. when its served, the color is okay. den i stir
the pot, and the whole thing turn red. 3 of my fren ate 1 third of it
and i have to finish the other 2 third. they say its hell but i think
the spiciness just okay. den after that when we going back to take the
bus, ITS SNOWED. WOOHOO!~ FINALLY MY WISH CAME TRUE XD
its not exactly like rain. it falls at different rates. and when u try
to touch it with ur finger, it melts in ur hand. i did a very crazy thing
tat night. i ate my cup noodle outside in the snow. it was awesome.
to be wearing only a normal DMIT jacket. nice feeling. ate halfway
run back into the hotel cos too cold XD. and that will sum up day 4.
day 5!~ finally shopping day. but our lecturer suddenly change plan
and bring us to a museum to draw -.- i totally waste my time there.
suppose to draw artifact but i draw people drawing artifact. alwell.
didnt feel like drawing there also. so freaking cold. den lunch was
VERY NICE! ITS VEGE WRAP MEAT!!!!! still trying to recreate it at home.
but the seasoning just not rite. anyway, after that we went shopping.
oh! oh! tell u a secret. i saw sunny!!! she was rushing for a christmas
performance @ lotte world! just nice shopping opposite it! this yr
christmas is really christmas XD so many wishes come true.
and tats about it for the korea trip! after that was flying back to sg.
hm... it took me 1 hr to type this sia. i shall sleep and carry on with
the daiko christmas party and stuff on my next post.
im sleepy too so gd nitz!~

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...
Before Christmas
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
well, its christmas again.
just came back from S.Korea
last saturday. will blog bout
tat soon XD.
anyway, its another year pass
and now im in the clubhouse
preparing the stuff for
christmas decoration tmr.
lets hope tat all goes well tmr.
お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...
di yi ci ( first time)
Thursday, December 2, 2010
ever since i came to sp, alot of things happen.
and alot of those things that happen are my first
time.
and esp. when i reach year2 in my poly life, hell
lot of first time. well, to start of, this is my
first time in a performing cca. ever since my
pri sch, i've only been in UG, sports or clubs,
nvr in performing group. okay, i did join choir in
pri 6 but we did nothing much, cos first year having
it.
its also my first time joining a amazing race around sg.
its was tired and embarrassing. dun ask me the detail cos
i wan to keep it to myself as its the first camp i had in
SP.
be noticed. although i've been very well known in all my
study life, but i have a feeling that people accept me
for what i am capable of and not for what i can do for them.
but, that's till a while ago. alwell, at least its a different
feeling from back then.
wild wild wet. believe it or not, its my first time to wild wild
wet this year. its amazing. i wanna thx zaylinn for the free tickets.
i think without the free tickets, i would nvr have the chance to
go to wild wild wet.
gamemaster. believe it or not, i have alot of ideas for camps
and games, but i have nvr been appointed a row related to GM.
i've always been the one who follow orders. thus being a GM is
a different feeling for me as i am the 1 giving orders to people
to conduct the game.
planning a chalet. although there were nothing much to plan, but
i hope everyone have fun during the chalet and i think everyone
did. so im glad that it worked out as there wasnt much planning.
and must of my first time, was in the chalet.
world of k-pop. i would like to thx 2 of my fren here, yl and
justina. without them, i would nvr have tried to listen to korean
song and would nvr discover how beautiful korean songs are.
chairman. i would nvr expect myself to become a chairman of the class.
basically, i dun present myself properly to others as i do not noe
how to express myself. and secondly, i grew up in a harsh environment
so i use alot of vulgar. but, in the end i still took up the job.
and i think i did okay.
receiving a hug. it was during the daiko chalet, where one of my
fren hug me. that hug was the best hug i ever had. alot after
receiving the hug, i felt like crying as it felt really warm, and
the very first time i felt tat i was accepted by another person.
but i shy out from the hug and my face turn red. i nvr revealed
my true self to anybody, not even the people closed to me. so i
just had to hold it back and pretend nothing happen when my fren
hug me.
watch the sun rise with my fren. i always been alone, and i do things
alone. its the first time i watch the sun rise with so many people.
it makes me feel more accepted by the world.
dance. well, i always tot tat dancin was for girls and gays but i was
wrong. dancing is a medium to express ur feelings. ever since i see
1 of my fren dance so well, i began to pick up bits of dance from
song mvs.
sunshiner. thank you wendy. for introducing me to sunny. its the first
time i idolize a singer, and it brighten up my life. its no longer the
same routine of going to sch just to face the comp and doing work.
being known for what i did and not for fighting. well, usually my whole
sch knows who i am because i keep getting into fights. but now, people noe
me for what i did, my achievements.
performing in a concert. its the best moment of my sp life. my first
concert. okay, not mine. its everyone's. but looking at others training
hard, makes you wanna push yourself more. 19-06-2010 i will nvr forget
this date.
saying no to others. when people ask me to do something for them,
i usually say "okay lor". but, during tis sem, when people ask me to join
my group, and these people only hug those tat can work cos they cant, i
ask them to ask my boss. although tis is not directly saying no, but
they noe tat my boss sure say no. so i think its a kind of saying no to
others.
celebrate chirstmas. i've nvr celebrated christmas. so its a new
experience for me and i love gift exchange sessions.
birthday party. can you believe it? 18 years of my life and none of my
fren celebrated my birthday for my. but its a different case when i come
to poly. during my year 1, my daiko frens wrote me a card. i was touched
as its the first time some one actually celebrated my birthday. although
there was no cake, the card enough is very important to me. now in my
year 2, they actually bought me presents and make cards for me. i had
frame all the photos that they gave me. i will nvr forget them. all the
cards are all well kept. i will nvr forget u guys, daikorean.
ask by a girl if i like her. well, you noe the answers if you noe me well.
of cos i would shy out and say nothing. but the feeling is nice. i nvr tot
that a girl would as me this question. so... i shall not say anything more.
its also my first time buying poster. u noe, poster is like everytime u
sees it, it give u abit of motivation to work. and it also brighten up
yr room and mood.
well, there are alot more di yi ci but i shall not blog about them for
if i blog about them and my daiko mates sees them, im dead XD and i still
have to do my assignments so. until next time.
帰り。。。皆さん。。
okaeri... minasan..
welcome home... everyone...
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