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Thursday, August 5, 2010
just fuk it...
im just a god damn burden to everyone around me.
お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
once again. i went to the club room after my lesson.
the empty club house just feels so comfortable.
its like the only place where i can put down the load on my shoulder.
i just wan people around me to be happy.
isit tat hard?
going around to help others carry their burdens.
isit stupid?
acting like a retard to cheer others up.
isit really retarded?
the true me, lock within.
i wonder...
when can i really release the chains.
and become myself.
maybe i should stop helping others lift their loads.
but watching others look stress.
i really hate it.
thats y i choose to talk the sorrow from others,
and build it within me.
if only i can ease their pain.
if only i have more power.
i wont have to see ppl around me suffer so much.
i wish i can take all the sorrow and suffering from others,
and just keep it in me, so that no one will be sad.
maybe this is just a very foolish idea;
but so what. i chose to bear the weight of other feelings.
お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...
Sunday, August 1, 2010
The truth that lies in front of my eyes are put away in sepia tones
I don’t understand those things anymore
“You’ll be fine on your own… right?” that's what you said before saying goodbye
If it’s going to be that kind of consolation then I should be tired of hearing it by now
The merciless memories seem to have no intention of forgiving me.
Even if I close my eyes they will still playback.
Will the rain ever stop, I wonder? For a pretty long time now it’s been cold.
Why am i standing in this wide empty field, with nothing to hide under.
As time past, i realize. The future is not what i wanted.
As the past, is what i seek.
You, who try to give me a new start by your consolations.
I'm sorry but i still keep everything inside.
A heart lock within the darkness, scars that near heals.
A decoy that stays on the surface, hiding away the truth.
The sorrow and pain which build up within.
Nobody will ever understand.
The rain keeps on falling today as well knowing no end,
with no where to hid, i can only take the load off others,
to forget the sorrow and pain within.
お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...
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