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Name: Bobby ColdHeart
Birthday: 9 Nov 92
Gender: Male
Horoscope: Scorpio
School: Singapore Polytechnic (SP)
Bukit Merah Secondary School (BMSS)
Zhangde Primary School (ZPS)

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15 May - Sunny's Birthday

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19 June 2010 - Elements
29 October 2011 - SummerBeat

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Memories

Before Christmas

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

well, its christmas again.
just came back from S.Korea
last saturday. will blog bout
tat soon XD.

anyway, its another year pass
and now im in the clubhouse
preparing the stuff for
christmas decoration tmr.
lets hope tat all goes well tmr.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

di yi ci ( first time)

Thursday, December 2, 2010

ever since i came to sp, alot of things happen.
and alot of those things that happen are my first
time.

and esp. when i reach year2 in my poly life, hell
lot of first time. well, to start of, this is my
first time in a performing cca. ever since my
pri sch, i've only been in UG, sports or clubs,
nvr in performing group. okay, i did join choir in
pri 6 but we did nothing much, cos first year having
it.

its also my first time joining a amazing race around sg.
its was tired and embarrassing. dun ask me the detail cos
i wan to keep it to myself as its the first camp i had in
SP.

be noticed. although i've been very well known in all my
study life, but i have a feeling that people accept me
for what i am capable of and not for what i can do for them.
but, that's till a while ago. alwell, at least its a different
feeling from back then.

wild wild wet. believe it or not, its my first time to wild wild
wet this year. its amazing. i wanna thx zaylinn for the free tickets.
i think without the free tickets, i would nvr have the chance to
go to wild wild wet.

gamemaster. believe it or not, i have alot of ideas for camps
and games, but i have nvr been appointed a row related to GM.
i've always been the one who follow orders. thus being a GM is
a different feeling for me as i am the 1 giving orders to people
to conduct the game.

planning a chalet. although there were nothing much to plan, but
i hope everyone have fun during the chalet and i think everyone
did. so im glad that it worked out as there wasnt much planning.
and must of my first time, was in the chalet.

world of k-pop. i would like to thx 2 of my fren here, yl and
justina. without them, i would nvr have tried to listen to korean
song and would nvr discover how beautiful korean songs are.

chairman. i would nvr expect myself to become a chairman of the class.
basically, i dun present myself properly to others as i do not noe
how to express myself. and secondly, i grew up in a harsh environment
so i use alot of vulgar. but, in the end i still took up the job.
and i think i did okay.

receiving a hug. it was during the daiko chalet, where one of my
fren hug me. that hug was the best hug i ever had. alot after
receiving the hug, i felt like crying as it felt really warm, and
the very first time i felt tat i was accepted by another person.
but i shy out from the hug and my face turn red. i nvr revealed
my true self to anybody, not even the people closed to me. so i
just had to hold it back and pretend nothing happen when my fren
hug me.

watch the sun rise with my fren. i always been alone, and i do things
alone. its the first time i watch the sun rise with so many people.
it makes me feel more accepted by the world.

dance. well, i always tot tat dancin was for girls and gays but i was
wrong. dancing is a medium to express ur feelings. ever since i see
1 of my fren dance so well, i began to pick up bits of dance from
song mvs.

sunshiner. thank you wendy. for introducing me to sunny. its the first
time i idolize a singer, and it brighten up my life. its no longer the
same routine of going to sch just to face the comp and doing work.

being known for what i did and not for fighting. well, usually my whole
sch knows who i am because i keep getting into fights. but now, people noe
me for what i did, my achievements.

performing in a concert. its the best moment of my sp life. my first
concert. okay, not mine. its everyone's. but looking at others training
hard, makes you wanna push yourself more. 19-06-2010 i will nvr forget
this date.

saying no to others. when people ask me to do something for them,
i usually say "okay lor". but, during tis sem, when people ask me to join
my group, and these people only hug those tat can work cos they cant, i
ask them to ask my boss. although tis is not directly saying no, but
they noe tat my boss sure say no. so i think its a kind of saying no to
others.

celebrate chirstmas. i've nvr celebrated christmas. so its a new
experience for me and i love gift exchange sessions.

birthday party. can you believe it? 18 years of my life and none of my
fren celebrated my birthday for my. but its a different case when i come
to poly. during my year 1, my daiko frens wrote me a card. i was touched
as its the first time some one actually celebrated my birthday. although
there was no cake, the card enough is very important to me. now in my
year 2, they actually bought me presents and make cards for me. i had
frame all the photos that they gave me. i will nvr forget them. all the
cards are all well kept. i will nvr forget u guys, daikorean.

ask by a girl if i like her. well, you noe the answers if you noe me well.
of cos i would shy out and say nothing. but the feeling is nice. i nvr tot
that a girl would as me this question. so... i shall not say anything more.

its also my first time buying poster. u noe, poster is like everytime u
sees it, it give u abit of motivation to work. and it also brighten up
yr room and mood.

well, there are alot more di yi ci but i shall not blog about them for
if i blog about them and my daiko mates sees them, im dead XD and i still
have to do my assignments so. until next time.

帰り。。。皆さん。。
okaeri... minasan..
welcome home... everyone...

Birthday

Friday, November 19, 2010

9nov was a very an jin day. although
its my birthday, its just like any
other day. well, so its just like any
other day where i wasted my time in sch.
but den, on 10nov, something fishy is
going on in the clubhouse. but i just
pretended nothing happen and shift the
drums to Colours @ library for escapade
training. when everything was completed
we went back to the clubhouse. on the
way back, i noticed tat some of my mates
keep sms-ing, and tats when i know their
plan. so i contiuned acting. when i reach
the clubhouse, the lights were still on,
and besides, the key holder is with me
so how could there be lights? and some
of the helpers are missing. XD well, i
they just wented to give me a surpirse
but i spoted their flaws and i played
along XD guyz, dun worry if ur plan failed
what matter the most is we had fun. XD
well, i will post a photo of the gifts
i got once i mount all the photo up.
a summary tat wad i got is,
1 pair of headphone from the freshies
1 shaver
3 cards
tons of sunny's photo
hundreds of FB birthday wishes

well, i hope u guys know my style by now.
somethings are not meant to be said but
to be felted.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

update since Aug

its been like 3 months since i last blog.
am going start which my LTC camp which is around
22-27Aug. after that, will be the YOG performances
tat is from 28-1Sep. next will be the daiko outing,
22Sep, followed by the Mid-Autumn Chalet, 23-25Sep.
for the month of oct, there was nothing much but i
will tok abit on the newspaper collection on 31 oct.
on nov will be my class movie outing on 8nov and ,
following that will be the escapade on 13-14nov,
followed by AFA on 14nov and the current malaysia trip
tat i am at now, from 16-21Nov.

basically, LTC stands for Leaders of Tomorrow Camp.
its a camp tat draws out the leadership skill of
the camper as well as teamwork and many other factors.
and the camp is @ malaysia. and this is the first time
i went to malaysia =]

22Aug
as for the first day of the camp, we took the whole
day travelling to perak, malaysia. we left sch at
around 745am. reach checkpoint around 8. on the way
there, i ate A & W for lunch =] its been ages since i have
it cos SG branch all closed down. when we reach the Normad
campsite, it was around 4 or 5pm, den we played fisbee,
football, and chat awhile b4 dinner is served. after dinner,
we had a few briefing before we called it a day.

23Aug
day 2 of the camp, 7am in the morning. we woke up today
and had to ride a truck all the way to the market.
we were given a sum of money to settle our breakfast,
dinner, and the following day's breakfast. the line-up
for day was, market trip, wide water resue, wide water
ratfing and hiking to mountain sch. starting from the
first event, we went to the market and this is my first
time seeing live chicken. they were so cute!~ so we
decided to go and have breakfast first since every1 is
hungry and leave the shopping to the malays. also note
tat the period where we are camping is also the period
tat they are fasting. thus we feel bad that we are eating
without them, but we cant help it. i had niang tou fu for
breakfast, as recomended by a ipoh resident from our
group member. it was nice. after eating tat i feel tat
sg food is nothing compared to my food =] after eating and
buying everything tat we nid, we had alot of money
leftover, thus some of them went to buy fireworks XD
so we left the market with all the food items and fireworks
to a river somewhere in the mountains. we waiting and chat
with each other till lunch was served. after eating,
we started the wide water rescue. it started out with
swimming across the rapids. trust me, it was not easy it all!
but the instructor demo for us and it looks like NOTHING!
i tried like 2 times b4 i manage to swim across the rapids.
pls be warmed, if u get swap downstream, u gg already.
so got alot of pressure, but got instructor there to save us
after swimming across the river, we had to swim back -.-
but swimming back was easiler cos got bigger pot hole XD
after tat was crossing the river in a group. we started with
3 people, circling as we move, den as a group( around 13 ppl )
in a arrow head formation. after everything was done, its
finally time for the wide water rafting. it was 1 of the
few most awesome and yet most crazy thing i've done XD
basically it's rafting down a rapid. and there are alot of
mini water fall along the way. i still rmb tat i save my
teammates like 3 to 4 times. everytime when hes about to fall
off the raft, i will pull his life jacket and nudge him back
into the raft XD well, not every1 survive the trip. it was
when we are going thru 1 of the "waterfall", 1 of the crew
fall into the water, and it was very funny. she wasnt suppose
to fall but was nudge in by the other guy who was recovering
from the impact. well, u have to go thru it to understand the
whole journey. so i will stop here. after reaching the target
location, we hike all the way to mountain sch. on the way there,
every1 was tired, but a few of us started singing song to keep
the atmosphere up. but den half way thru, it started raining!
and tats when every1 started to show care for the other mates,
and we became damn high. upon reaching the mountain sch, still
rainning, we split into 2 groups. girls will handle dinner(cooking)
while guys build the bashas(basic shelter). because it was rainning,
we had to build in the rain and think of anti flood measures.
in the end, the boy's basha become like a slum with the girls
become a real basha XD before the day ended, we all huddle up
and ate dinner. as it was very cold, the instructor build a
campfire and we all huddle up around it and chit chat. it was
fun. and tat's about all for day 2.

24Aug
day 3 of the camp. today, we will be doing kayaking and
high ropes. today was a freaking tired day for me as i had
a fever today and i nvr told any1. so we woke up, dunno wad
time, had breakfast and den safety briefing for the high ropes.
tis high rope is 1 of the most fun and memorable one. as i didnt
tell any1 i was sick, i was shaking throughout the high rope.
although i was the slowest and i drag my group back, every1
encouraged me and i move on for them. i didnt give up halfway
thru and tats the most important thing to me at tat time, as
we promised each other that no one gets left behind. im glad
tat no one give me black face cos i was slow, but all were
smiling and pushing me along the way. after tat, we hike back
to normad campsite where get our kayaks and we started kataking
down the river near the campsite. for me, i sat at the front,
which is the motor for the kayak, and a experience kayaker
was at the backseat, which is responsible for turning the kayak.
the most funniest thing tat happen in the whole kayak trip
was tat both my hands and legs cramp when i got splash by the
cold water XD but i suck it up and my teammate didnt notice it.
other den tat, the whole trip was all about nice scenary to me.
when we reach our target location, which is somewhere, i dunno
where, we had a hard time moving the kayaks upshore as there
was no river banks and we are all on muddy grounds. the girls
tranported the paddlers up first, and the guyz shift the kayaks
up. i stayed in the water and provide anchor for the kayaks and
raft. at this point of time, many of u will say if you have fever,
WHY ARE YOU STAYING IN THE COLD WATER! well, as mention earlier,
i nvr tell anyone so i just pretending nothing happned. as the
anchor, i realise tat it is a very important job as the anchor
has to anchor the rafts so it dosent get sweep downstream and
have to lift of the raft so the other member can pull it up.
after tat, we were transported back to normad. on the way back,
we spoted leeches on 1 of the camper thus we took action
and killed the leeches on the bus. im glad that no leeches where
stuck on me, as there was no lighter and we had to pull them
off. but the lucky thing is, they are all still babies.
upon reaching normad, we had a briefing b4 we called it a day.

25Aug
day 4, today we only had caving b4 going to the hotel.
after having breakfast, we all pack up and prepare ourself
to venture into the cave. at this point of time, i feel
pretty weak, and will feel dizzy with the slightest movement.
i told myself, in this camp, in my team, no one gets left
behind. thus i pushed on. upon entering the cave, its a sight
were you cant believe your eyes. it was DAMN INTERESTING!
there were inscriptions from the WW 2 and many many more.
but, we were all bluffed by the endless stairs that awaits.
the stairs were like staircase to hell. it was freaking long
and we had to climb alot of stairs. after like 30-60mins of stairs
climbing, we finally when off track and the real adventure begin.
first, we had to slide down a freaking 75degree slope. and
once again, the instructor did it as if it was nothing. i was
the last few to go down the slope but it wasnt tat bad as i
expected it to be. after the slope, we huddle up to have a
safety briefing and we broke up into 2 groups and we have to
exit the cave before high tide. although it was freaking dark
inside, u cant even see ur hands when they were right in front
of you. i shall not bored the readers with all the texts, as
all tis texts cant explain what it is like unless you try it
yourself. so when we exited the cave, we took alot of group photo
before overself cleaning up. tat's when i finally told my group
mate tat i had a fever XD as all the activities are over.
so we when to the hotel and we rested our bodies for awhile, before
gonig to Parkson mall to look around and some of them played bowling.
it was freaking cheap, compared to sg. after tat, we went to the
night market for dinner and den we move to a dark alley to play
fireworks before moving back to the hotel, as we cant bring the
fireworks back to sg, so we spam everything. at that everynight,
we hosted a mini party in 1 of the girls room till around 3am.
it was fun. and our lecturer came into our room to break the party,
as it was getting too noisey and we were disturbing other ppl.

26Aug
day 5, nothing much today, just packing up and heading back
to sg. when i reach sg, i went back to daiko clubroom and
there were still ppl inside =] so i gave them the pineapple
tarts tat i bought for them and chat for awhile before
heading back to sleep.

27Aug - 1Sep
its just 1 day after my LTC and i am here at suntec city,
performing for the YOG. it was freaking tiring but wad to do?
XD survived the day, and the same for day 2 of the YOG.
luckily i only had 2 days performance, 27 and 28 Aug.
but i miss another year of natsumasuri T.T it was the
very day tat i had performance. well, there's always next yr XD
the next performance which i wasnt performing but also
for YOG was 29Aug and 1Sep. i went back on 1Sep to repair
my headphone as well as to help them shift the drums back
to sch. the whole yog was tiring but, it brough us closer.

22Sep
today is the daiko outing. we went to pasir ris park.
for the whole day, i felt tat i was just a extra and
should just stay at the back and watch den every1 will
be happy. like i should have gone to the outing in the
first place. at the end of the day, i still haven found
my place yet, but it ended great.

23Sep - 25Sep
these 3 days is the mid autumn chalet. it was fun and
i didnt slept for the first day XD basically, for the
first day we had BBQ at night and i am the fire starter
for day 2, we went out to eat breakfast, den we went to
wild wild wet during the afternoon. its the first time
i went there. before heading there, i made a prediction
tat there wil be injuries and there really were injuries.
jasper hand rub onto the wall den tio burn and i hit my
head. we also found out more about our mates. XD i shall
not say the things tat we found out but they are funny.
we had bbq again for day 2 dinner and i started the fire
again =] i had the best satay ever! and once again i
got another de yi chi. its the first time tat some1 kiss
me on the cheeks and held my arms. its nice to have so
many de yi chi. well and tats all for the chalet. the
rest are memories tat i wish to keep with myself.

31Oct
newspaper collection. basically, theres only 1 thing
tat i would like to tok about today. its a house which
we knock but no1 answered the door. just as we were
about to leave, the door suddenly open, slowly, but there
was no 1 there. thus i called to check if theres any1,
but no 1 replied. den my group mate was scared so we
left the place. uptil now, we are still not sure if
it was tat thing, or the door just wasnt close well.

8Nov
movie outing with my classmate is fun XD 4 of my classmates
came to my house to play Wii and we had tons of fun XD we
watched the owl movie and it was awesome XD before tat, i
forgot to tok about 4th nov. tat day we had a zoo trip
thus we had no sch on monday. on 4th nov, after the zoo trip,
i went back to sp for escapade training, but tats not
important XD the important thing is operation rona bona.
its a birthday party for of the daiko freshie. the details?
its part of my memory and i do not wish to share it. but i
would like to thank everyone that was there, as if you guys
were not there, the plan wont have worked.

13Nov - 14Nov
escapade, 1 of the overnight event of sp, where sec sch
student come to sp and enjoy the special events tat we
put up for them. well, nothing much happened, except for
1 of the screen fell onto my friend's head and she was
sent to the hospital. the reson why the pole fell? i think
it was because they mounted everything on cables so the
base wasnt every stable, so when they unmount the screens,
it fell the wrong way. went to the girl's house on 15 nov,
and shes alright.

16Nov - 22Nov
skip sch for 4 days XD just because my sis wedding in
malaysia -.- alwell, another of my de yi chi. i ride a
plane to malaysia XD so freaking cool sia the plane.
although its budget plane, the experience is something
tat u cant forget. 16 nov, do nothing @ jie fu's house.
17nov, breakfast inhouse,lunch inhouse, dinner at
the place near my LTC hotel. sure brings back memories.
18nov, breakfast at market, lunch inhouse, den move to
hotel and FINALLY GOT INTERNET CONNECTION XD, and i very
sad also. although i dun mind no internet, i also can
survive, BUT I MISS INVICIBLE YOUTH T.T my jie fu got
astro TV den got KBS den showing from 5-6pm but stuck
in this stupid hotel T.T, dinner went back jie fu house
but den too late liao. 6.05 reach. its the time when it
ended. DAMNIT!!! make me wanna have starhub tv cos they
also have KBS world. after dinner, nap awhile at his house
b4 moving back to the hotel.19 nov, my sis big day.
today the wedding. but later 4.30 to 6pm is MUSIC BANK!
RWAR!~ IM GOING TO MISSING ANOTHER KOREAN SHOW T.T
lets hope tat i can at least watch abit. like beast's
beautiful, orange caramel's ai-ing. these 2 are the
comeback special and SNSD's HOOT which is the hot stage
T.T well, tats all for now. i shall update the rest of
the trip on sunday when 1 get back. oh! and i haven finish
my assignment XD sat den do.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Thursday, August 5, 2010

just fuk it...
im just a god damn burden to everyone around me.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

once again. i went to the club room after my lesson.
the empty club house just feels so comfortable.
its like the only place where i can put down the load on my shoulder.

i just wan people around me to be happy.
isit tat hard?
going around to help others carry their burdens.
isit stupid?
acting like a retard to cheer others up.
isit really retarded?

the true me, lock within.
i wonder...
when can i really release the chains.
and become myself.

maybe i should stop helping others lift their loads.
but watching others look stress.
i really hate it.
thats y i choose to talk the sorrow from others,
and build it within me.

if only i can ease their pain.
if only i have more power.
i wont have to see ppl around me suffer so much.

i wish i can take all the sorrow and suffering from others,
and just keep it in me, so that no one will be sad.

maybe this is just a very foolish idea;
but so what. i chose to bear the weight of other feelings.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Sunday, August 1, 2010

The truth that lies in front of my eyes are put away in sepia tones
I don’t understand those things anymore

“You’ll be fine on your own… right?” that's what you said before saying goodbye
If it’s going to be that kind of consolation then I should be tired of hearing it by now

The merciless memories seem to have no intention of forgiving me.
Even if I close my eyes they will still playback.

Will the rain ever stop, I wonder? For a pretty long time now it’s been cold.
Why am i standing in this wide empty field, with nothing to hide under.

As time past, i realize. The future is not what i wanted.
As the past, is what i seek.

You, who try to give me a new start by your consolations.
I'm sorry but i still keep everything inside.

A heart lock within the darkness, scars that near heals.
A decoy that stays on the surface, hiding away the truth.

The sorrow and pain which build up within.
Nobody will ever understand.

The rain keeps on falling today as well knowing no end,
with no where to hid, i can only take the load off others,
to forget the sorrow and pain within.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

week 13...
tons of assignments still not done
screw it...
where da heck is my mood...

how i wish tat time could stop...
well... everyone have to keep walking...
which ever pace you are taking,
u are still walking.
one should never stop walking even
if there is a large obstacle in front

if you cant do it dosent mean you should quit it
just keep tryin till u get it right

so wad if you made mistake
so wad if you didnt listen
so wad if others are better
SO WAD!

if you stop and quit u will just be throw away
into the darkness... thats how the world works
so wad if you stop to take a break
when you come back u can still try it
try it u get it...
thats the only way tat you can move on

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Thursday, July 8, 2010

finally wednesday came yesterday after so long XD
but as ususal, i was late for wed's freshie training
because i got gems and director dialogue yesterday
but... who cares!
anyway, when i reach the club house,
it was around 4.15
so i went to the concer and started playing the basic beats
on the odaiko.
after the training ended,
1 of the freshie brought out a cake tat she made
and every1 was like WOW!~
although i didnt eat it, or should i say...
i cant eat it because everytime i eat cold stuff,
my joints will hurt due to injuries T.T
seriously, if u ask me,
health or hobby,
i will say hobby.
thats the type of person i am.
i am willing to give in my 200% to do things that i like
i am willing to trade my life to do something that i like
thus whenever people ask me to stop daiko,
it just piss me off.
i dun care if my ankle is damage forever.
i just wanna live doing what i like

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Monday, July 5, 2010

am i not needed anymore by this world?

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

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