.::. Welcome to my world of sadness .::.

2011-12-26T14:19:00.001+08:00

I still dun like being in a crowd.
I rather watch from afar.

2011-12-13T17:25:00.002+08:00

소녀시대 makes our lives Complete.

May everyday is a Sunny day!~

The Pencil Story

2011-09-28T12:40:00.001+08:00

Pencil: I'm sorry
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

May everyday is a Sunny day!~

NYX

2011-08-26T23:10:00.003+08:00

The darkness shaded the somnolent trees,

Only the fireflies who give lambent light

To the serene , somber, and soundless night

And it put me into the state of reminiscing memories

Is saw the stars forming constellations,

They made me remember the time I held your arms,

As i gaze sweetly upon your loving charms

Oh, I want to love again and see the visions.

Then I saw the moon looknig at me;

Waves and flashes of memory calls again.

I promise! Tonight will be the last night;

Fo once, I want to sleep over the moonlight glen.

To forget thee while lying in the real beauty of the night.

-End-

May everyday is a Sunny day!~

Words

2011-07-24T20:01:00.003+08:00

i just cant stand ppl saying words like

"i won't bother to do so much detail.
no wont would see it anyway."

"Its okay la dun nid so detail ppl wont
stand there and see."

"nvm la so small ppl wont notice."

correct la. sometimes ppl wont actually
see those kind of thing. but where is your
pride in your work.

even if people wont see it we must always do
our best. these half ass work and attitude.
i wont even consider you as a artiste/designer.

May everyday is a Sunny day!~

ITP

2011-05-17T18:57:00.004+08:00

WEE!~ my 4th week for ITP already XD
i still havent write my log book >.<
na ottokae this friday have to show
my log book liao.

Anyway, im very happy working in SP
innov GRC. i learn alot over there.
its like wad i wan to do. =] shall
write my log book later and finish up
by tmr before lunch keke. i still have
work to show tmr so i shall start doing
later XD even when i plan to start at 12.

May everyday is a Sunny day!~

Isolation

2011-04-15T14:05:00.002+08:00

Once again, I have bunk myself up in the clubroom.
Close to the point of breaking down, controlling
my emotions so that it will not show. Seriously.
Nobody listens to whatever i say. So why the hell
do I care for them. Everything is not as it was one
year ago. I noticed that the one who change was not
the others. It was me who have change. I grew too
attach to them and now i am creaing a distance between
me and the rest. Theres no point getting too close
to others. You will just end up hurting yourself
even more. Relationshp, who needs one. You can only
depen on yourself. Nobody but yourself understand
what you are going through the best. What for telling
others your problem. They won't even give a shit about
you anyway.

I once step out of my world of darkness. But life
itself is a bitch. If you leave yourself open, Life
will eat you up and shit you out and make you wish
that you shouldn't have been born. That's why I went
back to my own world and barricade myself inside, never
to come out again.

Who needs friends when you can stand strong yourself.
Screw the there is no I in a Team. Nobody will care
about their teammates. They will only leech off from
the stronger ones. There is no Us. It's only me and
the rest of the crowd. Isolation is all I need. Who
gives a damn about friendship. Who the hell care about
relationship. I will stand strong and bring down what
ever shit that is in my way.

Who needs company. Team is for the weak. I walk alone.
Leech off from me for all you want. I will take you down.
I don't care who the hell you are. I will prove that
even when i go solo i can still perform as efficent as
your so called "team".

May everyday is a Sunny day!~

Given Up

2011-04-14T19:44:00.001+08:00

I dreamed I was missing. You were so scared.
But no one would listen. 'Cause no one else
cared.

After my dreaming, I woke with this fear.
What am I leaving, when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know.

When my time comes, forget the wrong that
I've done, help me leave behind some reasons
to be missed. And don't resent me, and when
you're feeling empty. Keep me in your memory,
Leave out all the rest.

Don't be afraid, I've taken my beating. I've
shared what I've made. I'm strong on the
surface, not all the way through. I've never
been perfect, but neither have you.

Forgetting all the hurt inside, you've learned
to hide so well pretending someone else can come
and save me from myself. I can't be who you are.

Another day's been laid to waste in my disgrace.
Stuck in my head again, feels like I'll never
leave this place. There's no escape.

I'm my own worst enemy.

I've given up, I'm sick of feeling, is there
nothing you can say.

Take this all away, I'm suffocating. Tell me what
the fuck is wrong with me!

I don't know what to take, thought I was focused
but I'm scared. I'm not prepared.

I hyperventilate, looking for help somehow somewhere.
And no one cares.

If there is a God, put me out of my fucking misery.

May everyday is a Sunny day!~

Shits

2011-04-14T01:05:00.006+08:00

Who wouldn't want the chance to perform on stage.
I'm only playing 3 songs so who cares. Might as well
go and do backstage crew. At least I am slightly
better at doing back stage operations. Most of my
batch ppl are playing like 6-8 songs while i only
have 3. It only mean one thing. I still dun have
the rights to perform on the same stage as them.
Why did i join Daiko in the first place. I have
already lost all the feel to Daiko in last year's
Element concert. Why do i still try so hard to do
things for them. I have a choice to just leave.
So why am I still working so hard for this year's
Concert. It's not about how many songs I'm playing
anymore. I don't wish to perform anymore. I've
told some of them that I don't want to perform
anymore but all of them keep saying no, you can't
do that. But why? I have a choice and I can chose
not to listen to you. It's the last year for some
of you. If I can perfect the back stage operation
and put on a great show which will be embeded in
your memories, why not? I don't care about credits.
It's not about you or me. For I will be gone soon.
There's no point getting so close to each other
for we will be parting from each other. What for
have a painful parting if you can just leave in
silent. Maybe this is just my point of view. I
have never gotten close to anyone and i don't
think I will even get close to anyone. The closer
you are to others, the more scars you will get.

I choose not to reveal any infomation for myself
so that I won't get too attach. And yet there are
people who don't understand. Damn. Why the heck am
I tearing when I am typing this. I'm so useless.
I can't even do a single thing right. Why the heck
is my name being chant. I'm use a useless fool who
brainwashed myself into believing things that will
never come true. Screw all my dreams. I WILL NEVER
BE ABLE TO CREATE MY OWN GAME EMPIRE!!!

Screw it all. It's all just my own foolish fantasy.
Who needs companies. Why do I even care to be the
support pillar for those around me. Why the heck
do I open up my boundaries and allow people into
my life and give them support. I'm just a joke.
Thrash should know their limits and boundary.

Who cares anyway. For I will be gone soon. No one
cares. Human are selfish creatures. Why did I throw
away my selfishness.

Theres no light in my world. I'm so jealous about
others. Theres so much that I greed for. So what.
Even if I write down everything which I want, who
cares. They say that there is justice, but I say
that it's total bullshit. The kind ones will never
get what they deserved but the evil ones gets all
the credits. This is a world where the one that can
sync your views to theirs rule.

Screw it. Why do I keep thinking about the concert
plannings. All my ideas will never work. Why is my
brain still thinking about it. I'm just a complete
retard. What's the point of giving my 200% in every
thing that I do. Others are hardly putting any efforts
into it. SO WHY THE HECK DO I EVEN CARE SO MUCH! I
COULD JUST APPROVE ALL THEIR IDEAS AND LET THIS WHOLE
CONCERT FAIL! WHY IN THE FREAKING HELL DO I CARE SO
MUCH! I'M JUST A TOTAL FAILURE! I CAN'T EVEN DO THE
SIMPLEST THINGS CORRECTLY! WHY DO YOU ASSIGN ME AS
THE WELFARE OF THE CLUB! WHY DO YOU GIVE ME THE ROLE
OF 2IC FOR THE CONCERT! WHY! EVEN IF I ASK THIS OUT
LOUD, WHO THE HECK WILL CARE AND WHO THE HECK WILL
BE ABLE TO GIVE ME ANSWERS!

Seriously, screw it all. It's so troublesome and
complicated to work with others. I might as well
go back into my shell which I use to do. What's
the point of giving so much when I knew all along
that not one will thank you for all that you have
done. They will just take everything you give for
granted, as if you own them those things.

I've been thinking for a long time. Maybe i should
just disappear from this world. Nobody cares anyway.
Who would care about a failure like me. Maybe the
lifes of those around will be better that way. I
should just stand down.

I find no point to carry on. So what if I can
perfect backstage operations now. Nobody will tell
you things like, "Good job bro!~". They will just
forget about the whole damn thing. Screw the concept
of planning a concert where no one will forget what
we have been through. After the concert it will just
be a part of the forgotten memories. No one will care
about what you have done. Theres no reason for me to
go the extra mile. No one will sync with my idea.

Back stage crew? I don't even think that a failure
like me is even suitable to be part of the back stage
crew. I should just disappear, without a trace.

Never gonna experience a relationship, never gonna
be a fool to help others, never gonna open my inter
feelings. Locking myself up in my own cell.

Don't even try to cross the boundaries for i will
never allow others in. Screw life. It will just eat
you up and split you out as if you are some kind of
shit.

Why am I even here in the first place. Whatever.
This song kinda summarize what I am feeling now.

No matter how much i practice, I will never get it
correct.

ITP and other stuff

2011-04-08T20:56:00.002+08:00

today or rather i would say yesterday night,
our ITP result was posted in sch.
went to check it tis morning and i got into
the Game Resource Center @ innvo-v, SP.
was wad i wanted. at first. im not so sure
about it anymore. theres so many things going
on inside my head rite now. im not really sure
where i wan to go now. mayb i have lost sight
of my dream. but one thing for sure.
theres no point standing here and waiting.
even if u move blindly, some how u will
see the path that u wanted some where.

anyway, got a sms today. the sms was about
me being too serious about the concert planning.
well, i agree tat i am quite serious about it
as i wan it to be one where the audience will
nvr forget. i would rather give up the chance
to perform on stage if i can perfect the back
stage operation. i dun mind not performing and
solely being a back stage crew. i sux at druming.
might as well do something which i am better at.
well, i sux at everything anyway so wads the point.

anyway, moving on, the sms also said tat i am
anxious due to the timeline and my ITP. well,
i totally disagree to tis line. i am not the
type to let other things get in my way. i am
not worried tat i cannot continue planning
becos my ITP is starting. even if i have ITP,
i still have the night and bus trips to plan.
besides, my itp is only weekday. the weekends
are totally empty.

the timeline? there was no milestone for us to
meet anyway. its all set by us, the OIC and 2IC.
so wads the point of me worrying about the time
frame? i set it myself or rather, we set it
ourself. we can gauge about how long each section
needs.

there are ppl saying tat i am organized. i dun
feel tat i am organized at all. in fact i feel
that i cant even do anything well at all. although
i always tell others tat there is a reason for
wadever i do, but still, no one will trust me.
tats y i just say theres a reason tats why i do
tat. tell me y they say i am organized as i am
not convince at all.

the last of the sms was tat i am very serious
or formal. its because u r rank higher in terms
of hierarchy and we are doing work. thats y i use
formal speech with you.

alwell. its a dead blog anyway. just a place for
me to throw or deposit all my memories here. lets
hope no one read tis post as its only between
tis site and me.

hope tis will gimme some motivation to carry on
working.

May everyday is a Sunny day!~

gap

2011-04-06T15:13:00.003+08:00

the gap between me and everybody feels to be widening.
maybe i should try and close the gap some how.
or should i just leave it as it is?

sometimes its better not to get too attach to others
for in the end its painful to separate.

regarding the concert, i feel that its better if we
cancel it. dun see any point in planning it anymore.
its getting too personal. we lost our target
audience already so theres no point if you ask me.

May everyday is a Sunny day!~

Concert Planning

2011-04-05T14:48:00.005+08:00

theres so many Communication rite now within the 2IC and all. really dun feel like keeping up with the planning as 2IC I seriously feel like just doing the backstage crew and not plan and perform.

well, lets not let these kind of things spoil the mood.

May everyday is a Sunny day!~

Lies

2011-03-24T21:15:00.002+08:00

well. i guess by now alot of people may
think that i am lying. i wont be surprise.
i say that my ankle is hurting, but i still
do alot of stunts and run around. but i am
really not lying.

i chose to continue all the activities for a
reason. rather den resting and letting ur
brain noe tat the part is injure, y not work
it some more so tat ur body will produce
natural painkillers to numb the pain? at
least i can continue and try to tank till
the end so as to not let my teammate down.

well. lets hope tat my ankle hold tmr.
keep getting way recently and almost falling
everyday.

mayb i will put pressure on it later. but for
now, lets have a picture to cheer everyone up.

May everyday is a Sunny day!~

Results

2011-03-22T23:36:00.003+08:00

HOHO!~ today results release. didnt expect tat
the module which my HDD crash on me de got a
distinction!~ well. kinda happy and yet, sad
too. i feel tat many ppl take their results too
seriously. i noe u must b thinking. its the
results. it determine where u go. but i always
tell those around me. at the end of the day,
the result slip is just a piece of paper. nothing
more, nothing less. it is just a piece of paper
tat allows u to further ur studies. but tat
piece of paper cant get u to the end of the world.
in the end, at least to me, experience overthrows
any piece of paper.

so ppl. dun get too down becos u didnt score well.
u should b proud of urself cos u noe u did ur best.
dun care wad others tell u. cos they are in no
position to do so as u r hu u r. u shouldnt say tat
oh! my parent say if i fail i cant go anywhere. NO!
its ur life! choose who you wan to be and not who
u do not wan to be.

many people tell me singapore no industry but i still
carry on dreaming. i, have a dream. i dream to one
day, set up my own gaming empire. dun let others laugh
at ur dream. there is no such thing call foolish or
stupid dreams. dreams are something which u should be
proud of and uphold. dream, is life itself.

May everyday is a Sunny day!~

2011-03-21T23:25:00.001+08:00

tmr we will all be getting our result.
hope tat my GPA went up. to everyone out there,
u did ur best. dun regret wadever u have done.

May everyday is a Sunny day!~

thoughts

2011-02-20T23:12:00.007+08:00

its been quite a long time since i last blog.
so many things happen but im not gona address
all of them.

recently, so many of my peers are saying that
they are giving up and staying back one more
year in poly. its so frustrating to hear these
words. i feel so helpless and stupid cos i cant
do anything to help them cos we are from different
courses. and even if i can help them, i can only
do very little. sometimes i really think.
what for i learn so much stuff when its all just
basic knowledge. whats the use of learning so
many things and to find out that what you
learn is nothing. since we were fated to mean,
i wan all of us to move on together. my motto,
one for all, all for one. i hate to leave others
to die alone. i really hate it. but im just a
stupid idiot. whenever i try to push someone,
i feel that i am just hurting them more. i wish
to help other carry their burdens and ease their
pain and yet i am putting weights on their shoulder.

sometimes i wish i could just stay in the darkness
and just observe. but thats totally not my style.
when i see my peers in need, i just have to help
them even if they dun ask. im a idiot. what ever
i've done, im stupid. i cant even help others get
their confident back. i cant even help them with
their work.

they say, the first step of helping others is to
open yourself to others. but till now, my heart is
still closed. i choose to lock my heart so others
would think that i could be a pillar for them to
relay on. i was wrong. even the strongest pillar
will fall one day. its only a matter of time.
even volcano erupt when there is too much pressure.
but i cant reveal myself. theres nothing for me to
grab hold on when i fall.

it sucks to keep everything in. but this is the path
which i choose to take. theres no point in regreting
or what so ever.

lets screw this whole shit and put it aside. its
just me complaining to this blog where no one reads.

well, when traveling to and fro sch, i tend to think
alot. think about many many things and i plan these
things. it isnt wrong to plan early rite? cos it let
me imagine what the event or item will look like. and
planning early allows me to foresee the problems.
some people think that i just think too much. and i
love to put the blame on myself. well, since you give
me the task of planning the event, i feel responsible
for everything which cock ups during the event. things
wont go the way that you wanted it.

im gonna stop here. i find no point in complaining here
anymore. i have no idea what to type and what i am typing
anymore. i should cool my head.

i'm just too freaking useless and irresponsible.

maybe this may cheer me up.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

beautiful hangover

2011-01-25T20:49:00.003+08:00

last sunday was fun!~
went to tenko concert with my club mates.
basically tenko is a daiko group in sg.
at there i found my reason. well, u dun have
to noe wad it is =]
after the concert, we went to eat and shop
together. it was fun and enjoyable except for
some parts. i still dun get y he wanna exile
himself.

never the less. yesterday was funny cos every
monday lesson was acting class so basically
we just play for 3 hours. den me and my fren
have the hokkien and cantonese session again.
it was every funny. every1 of us xiao dao
stomachache. if possible u guys can come crash
the class.

yesterday, tat guy commented on the tenko concert.
he said tat the movement wasnt tat sharp. well,
if u r a good player, i wont say anything but u r
just some shitty half-ass player hu cant even get
a single song rite and u like tat say others. if u
wanna comment on others pls think about urself first.
do u have the rights or not. u cant play well and u
wanna comment on others hu play hell lot better den
u. i give u one advise. go jia sai and reflect upon
urself.

well. lets not let idiots spoil the mood shall we?
today, the noose came to my sch block and film. my
fren is a big fan of them so i ask him to go down
but he dun wan. den he tell me he very sad. he says
its like i see sunny but cannot go take photo with
her. well, for me if i like some1, i would be just
happy to be able to watch her from far. so i dun
really understand how he feels. well, i should be
doing my work now =] until next time.

oh oh! u must be thinking why my post is called
beautiful hangover. its because the hangover from
these few days are the best ever! its tiring and
i still recovering from the "emptiness", its the
best experience ever. i get to see alot of stuff
much more clearly now.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

2011-01-21T11:25:00.005+08:00

once again, im back to blogging. feeling freaking
tired these few days. i have no idea wads gone into
me. every i do is just not right. mayb its the sway
season. alwell, moving on. the past 2 days of bus trip
back home was hell.

on wed, there is this drunkard who
boarded the bus. as he is drunk, he cant stand properly.
so he keep swaying and hitting people. den after that, he
came and sit beside me. he keep pating my hands la -.-
den i walk off and he kick me. knn. den he sleep on the chair.
got old man wan sit also cannot. ccb. u like tat sleep cos
so much trouble. the bus keep stopping and my 20- 30min trip
become 1 hour. reach home late liao la. wan do my stuff also
cannot. too tired to work.

yesterday, there is this crazy idoit. i have no idea whats
going on as i was on the second floor with earpiece on. and
once again, the bus keep stopping. but this time, tat idoit
keep slamming the door den the bus driver stop the bus.
COMPLELELY. ccb. nid to wait till the police come before the
driver let us out to another bus cos tat bastard wan to escape
after i think assualting some1.

why da heck are these kind of stupid things happening to me.
im already freaking tired and i have no idea whats going on
with me and yet these kind of things happen around me to
irrate me even more. how i wish tat i can bash them up. but
they nvr assualt me first so i cant touch them. cb.

other then tat, as we noe i my monday lesson is for playing
games. so i keep preparing games to let them play. but den
i its like i tired so hard to prepare the games for u all to
play and i noe u all are tired. but why u all have to give me
the freaking sian look and reject all the game offer. we all
same course same class 1 lor. i now how u all are feeling also.

also recently. when people smile at me, i can feel that they
are grining undereneath that smile. stop looking down on me
can or not. i noe i cannot do alot of things. everything i do
is just not good enough. so wad. i still trying rite, not like
some idiots who quit halfway. so stop giving me the smile which
is just trying to entertain me.

screw this whole shit.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Christmas Daikonia

2011-01-18T22:36:00.006+08:00

hoho continuing from yesterday XD
on the 23rd of dec, a thurs, we had
our daiko christmas party =]

well, its not exactly what i have planed and had
in mind because i was in korea having my study
trip thus i pass the planning to my frens and it
just turn out to be like that. so i become kind of
a guest in the event.

the whole event started out decorating the club house.
we turn the club house into this and everyone were
happy.

carrying on, we played the first game. everybody were
very happy. till the first person got the forfeit.
basically the whole game is a forfeit game. den she
not happy that she kana. den dun wan to do the forfeit.
i noe the forfeit mayb a bit harsh but den its like
awhile only. plus u always so anti social one. do one
forfeit wont die rite? so in the end we skip her and carry
on. after that game, we play wack a pinata. i ask them
to warp onlyl ike 5 layers. in the end they warp
20 plus layers -.- the whole thing become as hard as
rock la. in the end we cut it open with a pen knife.

after that we went BBQ at moberly =] it was fun.
first time BBQ dun nid cook got food eat. haha.
but till now, everything was not what i have in mind.
it could be better. but, as long as everyone's
happy, im okay with it. by right, during and after
the bbq session we plan to play games. but in the
end some of them went to moberly to play wii. so
its another thing which is not on my checklist.
so the place went cold. and quiet. and we never
really get to sit down together and tok.
for me, im okay as long as the others are happy.
but i think it would be nicer if everyone stayed
and play games at the pit area. well. its over now.
no point whining over something that is over.
but overall, its fun. i will update on sch life tmr.
but now, i can barely keep my eyes open so...
good nite and sweet dreams.

its been years since i have my last dream and
i am still trying to dream. if only i could
dream again.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Life till now

2011-01-17T20:58:00.003+08:00

its been a awhile since i last blog XD
been busy with school work u see.
well first i will talk about the korean
study trip which i had and den daiko
christmas party. after that will b on
sch den some of the stuff i had in mind
for this yr concert.

oh!~ i nvr said this b4 but my club will
be having another concert this yr!~ i hope.
not really comfirmed yet.

anyway XD lets turn the time back to 13 dec09

it was early in the morning like... 3 am,
had to wake up and get ready to go to the
airport. my lecturer is crazy. ask us to meet
at 5 in the morning -.-
so reach there liao wait for my fren to reach.
den is keep waiting lor. till like 7.30
den check in to take plane.
tis is like my second time taking a plane.
(counting that to and fro is 1 time)
well. tio scam about the flight too! at first
my lecturer said is korean airline den go there
liao found out is singapore airline -.- ji tao
sian 3quater la. on the plane also quite boring
keep playing PSP and tetris with my fren. den
nvr sleep. total like sleep only 2hours plus nia.
so i shall skip till reach incheon airport.
ITS TOTALLY AWESOME! EVERYTHING IS IN KOREAN!~
first thing that my fren said to me is,
"BOBBY! SNSD!" den after that he said "BOBBY!
SUNNY OVER THERE!" totally sian diao la -.-
but its fun la. to have like ppl teasing u about
the thing tat u like.
the interesting thing there is that there are alot
of boxes mark with a "?" although till now i still
have no idea what those boxes are, but who cares XD
fast forwarding abit, we met our tour guide, BRYAN!~
hes a funny guy. noes korean, chinese and english!~
AWESOME!~ NO LANGUAGE BARRIER WAHAHAHAHAHA!~
den its finally time to go out to board the bus.
i tell u ar, tat time i only wearing 1 polo T and
1 jeans and shoes with normal socks. once the door
open ar and the cold air blow onto me. its epic.
the temperature is like -4 degree. den i stand down
there for like a few minutes. cos nid to load the suitcase
on the bus. freaking cold i tell u. but it was fun =]
breathing onto ur fren face cos when u breathe got
the smoke. den is the bus trip to SEOUL!~ WOOHOO FINALLY!
its a 1 hour plus trip. the only thing i wan to say
about their transport in winter is that, they never on
aircon. den the whole bus damn warm and stuffy.
but lucky i sit at the back got 1 door can open 1 at
the top of the bus. so we open abit and let the cold
air in XD damn fun. den after that around 5 plus korea
time we reach moi studio. its a animation studio. den
we see some of their artiste work. its like nothing u have
ever seen. now days animator do all the drawing on computer
but they hand drawn everything. 1 second 25 drawing. and
each animation last like 20-30 min. count how many drawing
liao. den each animation got like min 12 ep. thats ALOT!
it really motivate you but at the same time demotivate you cos
they are very hard working but den the quality is like i cannot
reach one la T^T and every staff gets their own personal space
den i notice tat alot of 2ne1 poster =]
after tat we went to a restaurant for dinner. it was a every
epic night XD becos of jellyfish. so basically its a hot pot
buffet. all you can eat. den we took alot of meat cos meat
is like the only thing there. they serve alot of meat. its
a meat lover heaven XD so i shall skip to the jelly fish part.
at first we tot that it will taste the same as sg. but we were
wrong. i took a big bite and i could hardly swallow it. it taste
horrible. its like wasabi mix with vinegar or something. den i
ask my fren try. he also cannot take it. so ask another person
to try. also cannot handle. den got 1 guy say he try liao not bad
with the noodle. den he just eat the jelly fish only. also cannot
tahan. so left 2 guy at the table. they hear us say until they
dun dare eat. so we ask them to just eat 1 piece and they did
at first they say okay den after biting for awhile, the flavor
burst out and they tear. its very funny cos their face suddenly
change. so tat sums up the first day in korea. OH OH! i also
wan to add that we got scam by the guide. he say go nearby
store to stock up on what we nid. den i only wear shorts with a
t shirt and jacket. den he bring us take the train to some place.
damnit sia. got to brave the cold with shorts!
and only a DMIT jacket.

day 2. today was a sunny day. like day 1, but even colder.
its around -9degee today. the first stop is to a filming studio
we get to see many awesome miniatures and a 3d clip. well, in
the end we didnt manage to watch the clip cos theres something
wrong with the projector and the staff keep saying sorry to us
in korean. but we noe its not her fault. but she look very sad.
alwell. after tat, we went outdoor and brave the cold. its a
good thing that we went out cos we get to see a village. a
actual village that were used to film gu dai xi. XD damn nice la
the detail. although the roof was made from Styrofoam XD that
is also the day where everybody nose keep running XD fun to see
like 18 red nose people walking together. after the visit, its
time to eat lunch. its the MOST AWESOME LUNCH we had in korea.
basically its a hotpot =] but theres something else tat make
it awesome. SUNNY ATE THERE BEFORE!!! AND I SIT DIRECTLY OPPOSITE
HER SIGNATURE AND PHOTO!!! wah!~ ji tao melt. nicest meal ever.
after tat we went to dongwoo animation studio. u noe ar, another
studio visit. den after tat, we when to dong da men and settle our
meal there and its the first place with i spent money. POSTERS AND
CALENDAR XD on! for dinner we had bibimbap. sry dunno how to spell.
and thats day 2. not snowing yet, everyone thinks it wont snow but
i still had a feeling that it will snow. OH! and btw, i was shocking
everything which i touch. so every1 dun dare stand near me T^T

day3, morning is another studio visit, sunwoo entertainment animation
studio. at there, we met 3 singaporean and they share with us some of
their work experience there. it was fun. and they show us many nice
animations. after that, we went to a art street where we had our lunch
and so on. i brought korean crackers there. the person making the
cracker was awesome. we cant even leave our hands bare in the cold wind
for more den a few seconds where we have to pay the money but they
made the cracker with any gloves O.O their hand really damn cold
resistant la. had ramen there. I WAN TO EAT RICE CAKE T^T alwell,
its over now. den we move on to visit a korean palace. ITS FREAKING
BIG! AND AWESOME! the engineering and the design, to every detail,
the builder of the past must have really though of it all. its perfect
in every expect. the way it keep the place warm in the winter, the
structure. its wonderful. after that, we had dinner at a... i cant rmb
XD but thats it for day 3. day 4 is just plain boring cos we went to
visit siggraph asia which is something like a animation festival.
and at the basement of the building(coex) there is a aquarium. cool
isit it. but the price is nicer. its like 20 plus SGD to go in there
of cos we nvr went in but we sneak into the gift shop and have a look.
the only two thing interesting on day 4 is that during dinner, we ate
a freaking spicy noodle. when its served, the color is okay. den i stir
the pot, and the whole thing turn red. 3 of my fren ate 1 third of it
and i have to finish the other 2 third. they say its hell but i think
the spiciness just okay. den after that when we going back to take the
bus, ITS SNOWED. WOOHOO!~ FINALLY MY WISH CAME TRUE XD
its not exactly like rain. it falls at different rates. and when u try
to touch it with ur finger, it melts in ur hand. i did a very crazy thing
tat night. i ate my cup noodle outside in the snow. it was awesome.
to be wearing only a normal DMIT jacket. nice feeling. ate halfway
run back into the hotel cos too cold XD. and that will sum up day 4.

day 5!~ finally shopping day. but our lecturer suddenly change plan
and bring us to a museum to draw -.- i totally waste my time there.
suppose to draw artifact but i draw people drawing artifact. alwell.
didnt feel like drawing there also. so freaking cold. den lunch was
VERY NICE! ITS VEGE WRAP MEAT!!!!! still trying to recreate it at home.
but the seasoning just not rite. anyway, after that we went shopping.
oh! oh! tell u a secret. i saw sunny!!! she was rushing for a christmas
performance @ lotte world! just nice shopping opposite it! this yr
christmas is really christmas XD so many wishes come true.

and tats about it for the korea trip! after that was flying back to sg.
hm... it took me 1 hr to type this sia. i shall sleep and carry on with
the daiko christmas party and stuff on my next post.
im sleepy too so gd nitz!~

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Before Christmas

2010-12-22T17:46:00.001+08:00

well, its christmas again.
just came back from S.Korea
last saturday. will blog bout
tat soon XD.

anyway, its another year pass
and now im in the clubhouse
preparing the stuff for
christmas decoration tmr.
lets hope tat all goes well tmr.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

di yi ci ( first time)

2010-12-02T20:25:00.004+08:00

ever since i came to sp, alot of things happen.
and alot of those things that happen are my first
time.

and esp. when i reach year2 in my poly life, hell
lot of first time. well, to start of, this is my
first time in a performing cca. ever since my
pri sch, i've only been in UG, sports or clubs,
nvr in performing group. okay, i did join choir in
pri 6 but we did nothing much, cos first year having
it.

its also my first time joining a amazing race around sg.
its was tired and embarrassing. dun ask me the detail cos
i wan to keep it to myself as its the first camp i had in
SP.

be noticed. although i've been very well known in all my
study life, but i have a feeling that people accept me
for what i am capable of and not for what i can do for them.
but, that's till a while ago. alwell, at least its a different
feeling from back then.

wild wild wet. believe it or not, its my first time to wild wild
wet this year. its amazing. i wanna thx zaylinn for the free tickets.
i think without the free tickets, i would nvr have the chance to
go to wild wild wet.

gamemaster. believe it or not, i have alot of ideas for camps
and games, but i have nvr been appointed a row related to GM.
i've always been the one who follow orders. thus being a GM is
a different feeling for me as i am the 1 giving orders to people
to conduct the game.

planning a chalet. although there were nothing much to plan, but
i hope everyone have fun during the chalet and i think everyone
did. so im glad that it worked out as there wasnt much planning.
and must of my first time, was in the chalet.

world of k-pop. i would like to thx 2 of my fren here, yl and
justina. without them, i would nvr have tried to listen to korean
song and would nvr discover how beautiful korean songs are.

chairman. i would nvr expect myself to become a chairman of the class.
basically, i dun present myself properly to others as i do not noe
how to express myself. and secondly, i grew up in a harsh environment
so i use alot of vulgar. but, in the end i still took up the job.
and i think i did okay.

receiving a hug. it was during the daiko chalet, where one of my
fren hug me. that hug was the best hug i ever had. alot after
receiving the hug, i felt like crying as it felt really warm, and
the very first time i felt tat i was accepted by another person.
but i shy out from the hug and my face turn red. i nvr revealed
my true self to anybody, not even the people closed to me. so i
just had to hold it back and pretend nothing happen when my fren
hug me.

watch the sun rise with my fren. i always been alone, and i do things
alone. its the first time i watch the sun rise with so many people.
it makes me feel more accepted by the world.

dance. well, i always tot tat dancin was for girls and gays but i was
wrong. dancing is a medium to express ur feelings. ever since i see
1 of my fren dance so well, i began to pick up bits of dance from
song mvs.

sunshiner. thank you wendy. for introducing me to sunny. its the first
time i idolize a singer, and it brighten up my life. its no longer the
same routine of going to sch just to face the comp and doing work.

being known for what i did and not for fighting. well, usually my whole
sch knows who i am because i keep getting into fights. but now, people noe
me for what i did, my achievements.

performing in a concert. its the best moment of my sp life. my first
concert. okay, not mine. its everyone's. but looking at others training
hard, makes you wanna push yourself more. 19-06-2010 i will nvr forget
this date.

saying no to others. when people ask me to do something for them,
i usually say "okay lor". but, during tis sem, when people ask me to join
my group, and these people only hug those tat can work cos they cant, i
ask them to ask my boss. although tis is not directly saying no, but
they noe tat my boss sure say no. so i think its a kind of saying no to
others.

celebrate chirstmas. i've nvr celebrated christmas. so its a new
experience for me and i love gift exchange sessions.

birthday party. can you believe it? 18 years of my life and none of my
fren celebrated my birthday for my. but its a different case when i come
to poly. during my year 1, my daiko frens wrote me a card. i was touched
as its the first time some one actually celebrated my birthday. although
there was no cake, the card enough is very important to me. now in my
year 2, they actually bought me presents and make cards for me. i had
frame all the photos that they gave me. i will nvr forget them. all the
cards are all well kept. i will nvr forget u guys, daikorean.

ask by a girl if i like her. well, you noe the answers if you noe me well.
of cos i would shy out and say nothing. but the feeling is nice. i nvr tot
that a girl would as me this question. so... i shall not say anything more.

its also my first time buying poster. u noe, poster is like everytime u
sees it, it give u abit of motivation to work. and it also brighten up
yr room and mood.

well, there are alot more di yi ci but i shall not blog about them for
if i blog about them and my daiko mates sees them, im dead XD and i still
have to do my assignments so. until next time.

帰り。。。皆さん。。
okaeri... minasan..
welcome home... everyone...

Birthday

2010-11-19T11:21:00.002+08:00

9nov was a very an jin day. although
its my birthday, its just like any
other day. well, so its just like any
other day where i wasted my time in sch.
but den, on 10nov, something fishy is
going on in the clubhouse. but i just
pretended nothing happen and shift the
drums to Colours @ library for escapade
training. when everything was completed
we went back to the clubhouse. on the
way back, i noticed tat some of my mates
keep sms-ing, and tats when i know their
plan. so i contiuned acting. when i reach
the clubhouse, the lights were still on,
and besides, the key holder is with me
so how could there be lights? and some
of the helpers are missing. XD well, i
they just wented to give me a surpirse
but i spoted their flaws and i played
along XD guyz, dun worry if ur plan failed
what matter the most is we had fun. XD
well, i will post a photo of the gifts
i got once i mount all the photo up.
a summary tat wad i got is,
1 pair of headphone from the freshies
1 shaver
3 cards
tons of sunny's photo
hundreds of FB birthday wishes

well, i hope u guys know my style by now.
somethings are not meant to be said but
to be felted.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

update since Aug

2010-11-19T09:26:00.002+08:00

its been like 3 months since i last blog.
am going start which my LTC camp which is around
22-27Aug. after that, will be the YOG performances
tat is from 28-1Sep. next will be the daiko outing,
22Sep, followed by the Mid-Autumn Chalet, 23-25Sep.
for the month of oct, there was nothing much but i
will tok abit on the newspaper collection on 31 oct.
on nov will be my class movie outing on 8nov and ,
following that will be the escapade on 13-14nov,
followed by AFA on 14nov and the current malaysia trip
tat i am at now, from 16-21Nov.

basically, LTC stands for Leaders of Tomorrow Camp.
its a camp tat draws out the leadership skill of
the camper as well as teamwork and many other factors.
and the camp is @ malaysia. and this is the first time
i went to malaysia =]

22Aug
as for the first day of the camp, we took the whole
day travelling to perak, malaysia. we left sch at
around 745am. reach checkpoint around 8. on the way
there, i ate A & W for lunch =] its been ages since i have
it cos SG branch all closed down. when we reach the Normad
campsite, it was around 4 or 5pm, den we played fisbee,
football, and chat awhile b4 dinner is served. after dinner,
we had a few briefing before we called it a day.

23Aug
day 2 of the camp, 7am in the morning. we woke up today
and had to ride a truck all the way to the market.
we were given a sum of money to settle our breakfast,
dinner, and the following day's breakfast. the line-up
for day was, market trip, wide water resue, wide water
ratfing and hiking to mountain sch. starting from the
first event, we went to the market and this is my first
time seeing live chicken. they were so cute!~ so we
decided to go and have breakfast first since every1 is
hungry and leave the shopping to the malays. also note
tat the period where we are camping is also the period
tat they are fasting. thus we feel bad that we are eating
without them, but we cant help it. i had niang tou fu for
breakfast, as recomended by a ipoh resident from our
group member. it was nice. after eating tat i feel tat
sg food is nothing compared to my food =] after eating and
buying everything tat we nid, we had alot of money
leftover, thus some of them went to buy fireworks XD
so we left the market with all the food items and fireworks
to a river somewhere in the mountains. we waiting and chat
with each other till lunch was served. after eating,
we started the wide water rescue. it started out with
swimming across the rapids. trust me, it was not easy it all!
but the instructor demo for us and it looks like NOTHING!
i tried like 2 times b4 i manage to swim across the rapids.
pls be warmed, if u get swap downstream, u gg already.
so got alot of pressure, but got instructor there to save us
after swimming across the river, we had to swim back -.-
but swimming back was easiler cos got bigger pot hole XD
after tat was crossing the river in a group. we started with
3 people, circling as we move, den as a group( around 13 ppl )
in a arrow head formation. after everything was done, its
finally time for the wide water rafting. it was 1 of the
few most awesome and yet most crazy thing i've done XD
basically it's rafting down a rapid. and there are alot of
mini water fall along the way. i still rmb tat i save my
teammates like 3 to 4 times. everytime when hes about to fall
off the raft, i will pull his life jacket and nudge him back
into the raft XD well, not every1 survive the trip. it was
when we are going thru 1 of the "waterfall", 1 of the crew
fall into the water, and it was very funny. she wasnt suppose
to fall but was nudge in by the other guy who was recovering
from the impact. well, u have to go thru it to understand the
whole journey. so i will stop here. after reaching the target
location, we hike all the way to mountain sch. on the way there,
every1 was tired, but a few of us started singing song to keep
the atmosphere up. but den half way thru, it started raining!
and tats when every1 started to show care for the other mates,
and we became damn high. upon reaching the mountain sch, still
rainning, we split into 2 groups. girls will handle dinner(cooking)
while guys build the bashas(basic shelter). because it was rainning,
we had to build in the rain and think of anti flood measures.
in the end, the boy's basha become like a slum with the girls
become a real basha XD before the day ended, we all huddle up
and ate dinner. as it was very cold, the instructor build a
campfire and we all huddle up around it and chit chat. it was
fun. and tat's about all for day 2.

24Aug
day 3 of the camp. today, we will be doing kayaking and
high ropes. today was a freaking tired day for me as i had
a fever today and i nvr told any1. so we woke up, dunno wad
time, had breakfast and den safety briefing for the high ropes.
tis high rope is 1 of the most fun and memorable one. as i didnt
tell any1 i was sick, i was shaking throughout the high rope.
although i was the slowest and i drag my group back, every1
encouraged me and i move on for them. i didnt give up halfway
thru and tats the most important thing to me at tat time, as
we promised each other that no one gets left behind. im glad
tat no one give me black face cos i was slow, but all were
smiling and pushing me along the way. after tat, we hike back
to normad campsite where get our kayaks and we started kataking
down the river near the campsite. for me, i sat at the front,
which is the motor for the kayak, and a experience kayaker
was at the backseat, which is responsible for turning the kayak.
the most funniest thing tat happen in the whole kayak trip
was tat both my hands and legs cramp when i got splash by the
cold water XD but i suck it up and my teammate didnt notice it.
other den tat, the whole trip was all about nice scenary to me.
when we reach our target location, which is somewhere, i dunno
where, we had a hard time moving the kayaks upshore as there
was no river banks and we are all on muddy grounds. the girls
tranported the paddlers up first, and the guyz shift the kayaks
up. i stayed in the water and provide anchor for the kayaks and
raft. at this point of time, many of u will say if you have fever,
WHY ARE YOU STAYING IN THE COLD WATER! well, as mention earlier,
i nvr tell anyone so i just pretending nothing happned. as the
anchor, i realise tat it is a very important job as the anchor
has to anchor the rafts so it dosent get sweep downstream and
have to lift of the raft so the other member can pull it up.
after tat, we were transported back to normad. on the way back,
we spoted leeches on 1 of the camper thus we took action
and killed the leeches on the bus. im glad that no leeches where
stuck on me, as there was no lighter and we had to pull them
off. but the lucky thing is, they are all still babies.
upon reaching normad, we had a briefing b4 we called it a day.

25Aug
day 4, today we only had caving b4 going to the hotel.
after having breakfast, we all pack up and prepare ourself
to venture into the cave. at this point of time, i feel
pretty weak, and will feel dizzy with the slightest movement.
i told myself, in this camp, in my team, no one gets left
behind. thus i pushed on. upon entering the cave, its a sight
were you cant believe your eyes. it was DAMN INTERESTING!
there were inscriptions from the WW 2 and many many more.
but, we were all bluffed by the endless stairs that awaits.
the stairs were like staircase to hell. it was freaking long
and we had to climb alot of stairs. after like 30-60mins of stairs
climbing, we finally when off track and the real adventure begin.
first, we had to slide down a freaking 75degree slope. and
once again, the instructor did it as if it was nothing. i was
the last few to go down the slope but it wasnt tat bad as i
expected it to be. after the slope, we huddle up to have a
safety briefing and we broke up into 2 groups and we have to
exit the cave before high tide. although it was freaking dark
inside, u cant even see ur hands when they were right in front
of you. i shall not bored the readers with all the texts, as
all tis texts cant explain what it is like unless you try it
yourself. so when we exited the cave, we took alot of group photo
before overself cleaning up. tat's when i finally told my group
mate tat i had a fever XD as all the activities are over.
so we when to the hotel and we rested our bodies for awhile, before
gonig to Parkson mall to look around and some of them played bowling.
it was freaking cheap, compared to sg. after tat, we went to the
night market for dinner and den we move to a dark alley to play
fireworks before moving back to the hotel, as we cant bring the
fireworks back to sg, so we spam everything. at that everynight,
we hosted a mini party in 1 of the girls room till around 3am.
it was fun. and our lecturer came into our room to break the party,
as it was getting too noisey and we were disturbing other ppl.

26Aug
day 5, nothing much today, just packing up and heading back
to sg. when i reach sg, i went back to daiko clubroom and
there were still ppl inside =] so i gave them the pineapple
tarts tat i bought for them and chat for awhile before
heading back to sleep.

27Aug - 1Sep
its just 1 day after my LTC and i am here at suntec city,
performing for the YOG. it was freaking tiring but wad to do?
XD survived the day, and the same for day 2 of the YOG.
luckily i only had 2 days performance, 27 and 28 Aug.
but i miss another year of natsumasuri T.T it was the
very day tat i had performance. well, there's always next yr XD
the next performance which i wasnt performing but also
for YOG was 29Aug and 1Sep. i went back on 1Sep to repair
my headphone as well as to help them shift the drums back
to sch. the whole yog was tiring but, it brough us closer.

22Sep
today is the daiko outing. we went to pasir ris park.
for the whole day, i felt tat i was just a extra and
should just stay at the back and watch den every1 will
be happy. like i should have gone to the outing in the
first place. at the end of the day, i still haven found
my place yet, but it ended great.

23Sep - 25Sep
these 3 days is the mid autumn chalet. it was fun and
i didnt slept for the first day XD basically, for the
first day we had BBQ at night and i am the fire starter
for day 2, we went out to eat breakfast, den we went to
wild wild wet during the afternoon. its the first time
i went there. before heading there, i made a prediction
tat there wil be injuries and there really were injuries.
jasper hand rub onto the wall den tio burn and i hit my
head. we also found out more about our mates. XD i shall
not say the things tat we found out but they are funny.
we had bbq again for day 2 dinner and i started the fire
again =] i had the best satay ever! and once again i
got another de yi chi. its the first time tat some1 kiss
me on the cheeks and held my arms. its nice to have so
many de yi chi. well and tats all for the chalet. the
rest are memories tat i wish to keep with myself.

31Oct
newspaper collection. basically, theres only 1 thing
tat i would like to tok about today. its a house which
we knock but no1 answered the door. just as we were
about to leave, the door suddenly open, slowly, but there
was no 1 there. thus i called to check if theres any1,
but no 1 replied. den my group mate was scared so we
left the place. uptil now, we are still not sure if
it was tat thing, or the door just wasnt close well.

8Nov
movie outing with my classmate is fun XD 4 of my classmates
came to my house to play Wii and we had tons of fun XD we
watched the owl movie and it was awesome XD before tat, i
forgot to tok about 4th nov. tat day we had a zoo trip
thus we had no sch on monday. on 4th nov, after the zoo trip,
i went back to sp for escapade training, but tats not
important XD the important thing is operation rona bona.
its a birthday party for of the daiko freshie. the details?
its part of my memory and i do not wish to share it. but i
would like to thank everyone that was there, as if you guys
were not there, the plan wont have worked.

13Nov - 14Nov
escapade, 1 of the overnight event of sp, where sec sch
student come to sp and enjoy the special events tat we
put up for them. well, nothing much happened, except for
1 of the screen fell onto my friend's head and she was
sent to the hospital. the reson why the pole fell? i think
it was because they mounted everything on cables so the
base wasnt every stable, so when they unmount the screens,
it fell the wrong way. went to the girl's house on 15 nov,
and shes alright.

16Nov - 22Nov
skip sch for 4 days XD just because my sis wedding in
malaysia -.- alwell, another of my de yi chi. i ride a
plane to malaysia XD so freaking cool sia the plane.
although its budget plane, the experience is something
tat u cant forget. 16 nov, do nothing @ jie fu's house.
17nov, breakfast inhouse,lunch inhouse, dinner at
the place near my LTC hotel. sure brings back memories.
18nov, breakfast at market, lunch inhouse, den move to
hotel and FINALLY GOT INTERNET CONNECTION XD, and i very
sad also. although i dun mind no internet, i also can
survive, BUT I MISS INVICIBLE YOUTH T.T my jie fu got
astro TV den got KBS den showing from 5-6pm but stuck
in this stupid hotel T.T, dinner went back jie fu house
but den too late liao. 6.05 reach. its the time when it
ended. DAMNIT!!! make me wanna have starhub tv cos they
also have KBS world. after dinner, nap awhile at his house
b4 moving back to the hotel.19 nov, my sis big day.
today the wedding. but later 4.30 to 6pm is MUSIC BANK!
RWAR!~ IM GOING TO MISSING ANOTHER KOREAN SHOW T.T
lets hope tat i can at least watch abit. like beast's
beautiful, orange caramel's ai-ing. these 2 are the
comeback special and SNSD's HOOT which is the hot stage
T.T well, tats all for now. i shall update the rest of
the trip on sunday when 1 get back. oh! and i haven finish
my assignment XD sat den do.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

2010-08-05T22:58:00.001+08:00

just fuk it...
im just a god damn burden to everyone around me.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

2010-08-03T16:52:00.002+08:00

once again. i went to the club room after my lesson.
the empty club house just feels so comfortable.
its like the only place where i can put down the load on my shoulder.

i just wan people around me to be happy.
isit tat hard?
going around to help others carry their burdens.
isit stupid?
acting like a retard to cheer others up.
isit really retarded?

the true me, lock within.
i wonder...
when can i really release the chains.
and become myself.

maybe i should stop helping others lift their loads.
but watching others look stress.
i really hate it.
thats y i choose to talk the sorrow from others,
and build it within me.

if only i can ease their pain.
if only i have more power.
i wont have to see ppl around me suffer so much.

i wish i can take all the sorrow and suffering from others,
and just keep it in me, so that no one will be sad.

maybe this is just a very foolish idea;
but so what. i chose to bear the weight of other feelings.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

2010-08-01T21:54:00.002+08:00

The truth that lies in front of my eyes are put away in sepia tones
I don’t understand those things anymore

“You’ll be fine on your own… right?” that's what you said before saying goodbye
If it’s going to be that kind of consolation then I should be tired of hearing it by now

The merciless memories seem to have no intention of forgiving me.
Even if I close my eyes they will still playback.

Will the rain ever stop, I wonder? For a pretty long time now it’s been cold.
Why am i standing in this wide empty field, with nothing to hide under.

As time past, i realize. The future is not what i wanted.
As the past, is what i seek.

You, who try to give me a new start by your consolations.
I'm sorry but i still keep everything inside.

A heart lock within the darkness, scars that near heals.
A decoy that stays on the surface, hiding away the truth.

The sorrow and pain which build up within.
Nobody will ever understand.

The rain keeps on falling today as well knowing no end,
with no where to hid, i can only take the load off others,
to forget the sorrow and pain within.

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

2010-07-13T15:28:00.002+08:00

week 13...
tons of assignments still not done
screw it...
where da heck is my mood...

how i wish tat time could stop...
well... everyone have to keep walking...
which ever pace you are taking,
u are still walking.
one should never stop walking even
if there is a large obstacle in front

if you cant do it dosent mean you should quit it
just keep tryin till u get it right

so wad if you made mistake
so wad if you didnt listen
so wad if others are better
SO WAD!

if you stop and quit u will just be throw away
into the darkness... thats how the world works
so wad if you stop to take a break
when you come back u can still try it
try it u get it...
thats the only way tat you can move on

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

2010-07-08T14:50:00.002+08:00

finally wednesday came yesterday after so long XD
but as ususal, i was late for wed's freshie training
because i got gems and director dialogue yesterday
but... who cares!
anyway, when i reach the club house,
it was around 4.15
so i went to the concer and started playing the basic beats
on the odaiko.
after the training ended,
1 of the freshie brought out a cake tat she made
and every1 was like WOW!~
although i didnt eat it, or should i say...
i cant eat it because everytime i eat cold stuff,
my joints will hurt due to injuries T.T
seriously, if u ask me,
health or hobby,
i will say hobby.
thats the type of person i am.
i am willing to give in my 200% to do things that i like
i am willing to trade my life to do something that i like
thus whenever people ask me to stop daiko,
it just piss me off.
i dun care if my ankle is damage forever.
i just wanna live doing what i like

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

2010-07-05T22:04:00.000+08:00

am i not needed anymore by this world?

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

2010-07-04T22:17:00.000+08:00

Well I was just thinking back about all the things I have done and all those which I could have done. And reflecting on alot of things. Am I really needed. For I feel I am just a god damn burden to everyone around me... Maybe I should just fade away. The emptiness feeling I had all along is slowly becoming a black hole... Draining away whats left of me... Away. Whats there to fight for if u cant do anything rite. お帰り。。。皆さん。。。okaeri... minasan...welcome home... everyone...

2010-06-28T09:39:00.002+08:00

its been about 1 month since i last posted
over the past month many things happen
but i only wan to talk about the daiko concert
well basically i feel tat i screw up alot of things
but i only wanted to make it a perfect concert
so every1 will rmb it well in their heart
but... i seriously feel tat i failed to do so
im still thinking and reflecting about it everyday

thinking... wad could i have done to prevent the screw ups
if only... i have done a better job...
if only... i have double check everything...
if only... i can rmb things better...
if only... i have no screw up...

i just wanna... make u guys happy...
cos for tat is my only thing left...
keeping me moving forward in my sp life...
well.. i guess no 1 will notice this post anyway...

for i will be forgotten soon...
as i fade away in the darkness ahead...

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Daiko Camp

2010-05-24T23:03:00.003+08:00

last fri was the daiko FOC camp
basically i was unhappy with the camp
reasons?
cos i didnt get to get more tan
and for both days i did not get to interact
much with the campers due to the
horror factory and the vid
but anyway did my job
see ppl smile...
kana feel happy on the outside...
but sad in the inside...
i hate who i am...
if only i can rip tat face of mine away
and show who i reali am

heres the vid

お帰り。。。皆さん。。
okaeri... minasan..
welcome home... everyone...

life

2010-05-21T11:21:00.000+08:00

its been around 8 months since i last post
i was working with my work all tis time
and have no mode to blog

anyway this week is like hell
rain everyday..
a tree fell on tues and block 4 lanes
so i was late for lesson
today first thing i see when i was taking
the bus was a family car crashing into a truck

im now in the 3d option which i always wanted
and in love with korean songs =]

i guess tats all i will write for now since im bloggin
in my lesson

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Karaok

2009-09-29T20:38:00.001+08:00

when to karaok yesterday with my cca fren
will upload the pics soon XD

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okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

new blog skin

2009-09-23T18:19:00.003+08:00

totally bored yesterday so just find random pics
and made this re5 skin lolx
not wad i expected but it will do lolx
since im using cs2 photoshop on desktop
and not a cs4 on my laptop

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Blackout

2009-09-05T21:50:00.000+08:00

Yesterday had a blackout at home while using my laptop lucky got put battery lol the reason for blackout is because of the water boiler or wadever tat is call... Anyway dam bored now お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

2009-09-03T08:06:00.000+08:00

its een a long time since i last post
been modeling stuff and dealing with
something heres somthing that i have done

(blogger down cant post photo)

alwell i will post them when its okay again
lol
anyway when to watch 2 movies on monday
with 2 different fren lol

first was up at vivo
then where got ghost at tiong bahru

guess what i got the same seat for both
the movies and the same hall and bought
the same stuff T^T

and the most weird thing is while watching
where got ghost rite the exit sign behind me
got hole so got a "spot light" shine on me
hm...normal movie okay but ghost moive
a bit er.... lolx anyway both where nice movie
and teach young ones good morale

next that i wanna say is out my grandma
i dunno wads gone into her. shes acting weirder and
weirder everyday also dunno wad to do with her...
haiz...

all these days whenever i try to slp i just cant
and when i finally slp i woke up
damn tired... been dieing to slp...
but i cant slp in the day...

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Progress

2009-08-10T14:11:00.003+08:00

been buxy these few weeks so nvr post
here are some of the stuff i did

first up ~ Tank

follow by my 3D first assignment ~ Massive Armoured Unit

then ~ DOMO-KUN

and ~ Atomic

and his friend ~ Atomic and Flame

well there are more but i will post these only XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Class Outing

2009-07-19T16:49:00.001+08:00

class outing yesterday
although not wad i plan but it was imbaly fun XD
well post the pic when i get them

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

2009-07-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

Day by day night by night I have been thinking of many things big ones small ones important and not important ones I feel like my head is going to explode soon I cant take this any more I just wish that I could put down this freaking heavy burden and just walk away... How good would that feel... I wonder if I could just enjoy even one second of that moment... How good would I feel? If only I can let go of the burdens お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

2009-07-15T21:32:00.004+08:00

all i ever wanted was for the class to work as one...
all i ever wanted was a listening ear..
yet for every moment i spent with my class...
i can feel that a border has been drawn...
between me...
and my class...
therefore i tired to talk to you guys...
but none was there...
therefore...
i am left with nothing...
nothing but saddness...

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

VAF Asignment

2009-07-03T17:42:00.001+08:00

today nid to hand up the first cut
for my VAF heres the clip enjoy!~
if posible pls give me comment in the
tag box thx

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Shits Happens

2009-07-02T18:43:00.000+08:00

today v. sad
kana 2 injury
both also related to staircase
the one first was walking up
the stairs then slip and kick onto
the next step
left leg bleed
second one was going down the stairs
miss a step and fell right down
right leg sprain
shits happen
and happen within 2 hour
damn sad

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Back to Sch

2009-06-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

the holidays r over and now its back to sch
but i spent almost everyday of my holiday at sch so...
its no back to sch lolx
anyway first day back
lesson was okay just my 3d model
abit erm... haha

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

DJ Rattle @ sp Experience

2009-06-28T17:36:00.000+08:00

finaly found tis vid bout dj rattle
performing at SP EXPERIENCE
whoever u r from whichever sec
thx for uploading tis clip
enjoy esp. the 2min 15sec there!~

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

VAF

2009-06-28T13:38:00.000+08:00

rmb the time bout the VAF lesson?
heres the video to it enjoy!~

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Filming

2009-06-26T14:30:00.000+08:00

went for filming for our VAF today
was expecting to start by 10
and end by 1 but instead
we started at 12 and ended at 4
lol was a very funny day
with lots of bloopers XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Updates

2009-06-25T23:22:00.001+08:00

19june:
nothing much when to sch to do some stuff

20june:
went to sentosa at first then went to sp
camp overnight

21june:
12-3am night walk v. funny
then after tat went marina for water fest.
see the seniors play daiko
damn shiock i luv the feel

22june:
went sch borrow equipment for VAF

23june:
went to sch then queensway buy stuff for VAF

24june:
filming canceled cos actors cant make it
borrow the equipment for nothing
thus in sch going over the script

25june:
skip daiko renew the borrowed items
go over script again
movie at night
damn piss off rite now
y do ppl always contact me
at the WRONG TIMES
I TOLD YOU TAT MY PHONE
NO BATTERY SOON AND U
FREAKING SPAM MSGING ME
ITS ONLY A SMALL PROBLEM
SO WHY CANT YOU WAIT TILL TMR
ITS NOT LIKE IM GONA DISAPPEAR TMR
RITE CANT U JUST WAIT
U HEAR ME W.A.I.T.
SO JUST F OFF FOR NOW
I DUN WANNA REPLY ANYONE RITE NOW
U HEAR ME

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Photoshoto Trip

2009-06-18T21:34:00.002+08:00

went for class photoshoting trip today
target was sungei buloh nature wetland reserve
got 331 shots lol im the first to finish
using up my sd card memory XD
some pics tat i have taken

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

DDM bonding day meeting

2009-06-17T19:44:00.002+08:00

today had meeting for bonding day
but in the end we did nothing
=.=
only 7 ppl showed up
so in the end played
plants vs zombie
and wasted 1 hr plus
XD
tmr photoshoting trip
a bit looking forward to it
lolx

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Daiko

2009-06-16T19:41:00.001+08:00

nothing happen much yesterday
but today DAIKO WOOHOO
the training very shiock
my left hand cant handle
the recoil T^T so its currently
hurting anyway
the seniors played a song for us
during our mini break
and i felt the feel
it was VERY NICE
i just luv the feeling
the beat and the feeling
after every stroke on the
drum im luving it

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Bored

2009-06-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

was bored today so went to youtube
and found tis interesting vid
enjoy!~

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Street Fest

2009-06-13T21:23:00.000+08:00

today went for street fest
totally bored nothing fun there
waiting for the band to play
SATSUGAI
but in the end no one did
haiz
wasted my 6 hr there
and 2 hr trip back home

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Chapter Warp Up

2009-06-12T20:09:00.003+08:00

no break since 1 june T^T
1-5 sch
6-8 JCC camp
9-10 sp experience
11 daiko
12 sch plus 3hrs of boxing non-stop
13 street fest
14 boxing 10hr non-stop
15 sch
16 daiko
17 10hr boxing non-stop
18 field trip
19-24 do hw
25 daiko
26-28 10hr non-stop wii

tis is my holiday schedue

T^T

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

DVDE

2009-06-06T10:33:00.001+08:00

finally completed DVDE assignment on last thurs lolx
alot of first time sia
first time got almost the whole class to come together
at fc5 to eat
first time go out of sch together
first time having dinner at someone's house,
a very warm sence indeed
lolx anyway we finish our dvde task le
woohoo

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

JCC Camp

2009-06-05T22:13:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO tmr jcc camp liao lolx
cant wait for it
but the damn sianz thing is
very camp got nite walk
-.-"| haiz not tat i scared
but just now play f.e.a.r 2
till damn scared la got surround
sound by some ppl lolx
anyway cant wait for it to start

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Summary

2009-06-01T19:15:00.005+08:00

its been a long time since i last blod XD 1 week plus
anyway here r the stuff tat i did XD

tis one is for ideas a mini stress music player

and tis for DVDE

still got go ECP take pic but shall not post it too funny already XD
and VAF insane mega funny vid
still waiting for the clip

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Laptop

2009-05-19T12:33:00.004+08:00

today in lesson damn sianz la laptop button came out
for no reason some more la nb
i use for a while then notice one button weird weird de
then i touch it and i fell out of position
totally wtf? tried fixing for 1 hr +++
then my class mate help me put back less then 1 min hao liao
wtf???
i keep sloting in from the top and bottom
but nvr tried the side
then she put from the side very fast put back la lolx

btw saw tis vid while surfing the net
HE IS VERY IMBA

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

PVZ and other funny stuff

2009-05-18T16:51:00.003+08:00

heres some PVZ vid which r VERY FUNNY

STARING ZOMBIE TEMP WORKER!!!

heres some cute vid of PVZ

and now for the FUNNY STUFF and CUTE STUFF!!!

staring the cat

and the cute animals

and lastly the FUNNY ONES

mayb tats not the last the last is TIS IMBA PENGUIN
if only i own it

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

PVZ

2009-05-17T18:55:00.000+08:00

hu got play PVZ?
i completed the game liao
stuck to it already
lolx now using the zen garden to earn gold XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Asiasoft Posters

2009-05-16T18:42:00.000+08:00

last friday my sis for no reason
call me during class
then call me go back wif her -.-
she was at clementi
so waited at bus stop till her bus came
went up the bus and she pass me the
pooster -.-"|
heres the pics

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Lessons Tofay

2009-05-15T22:34:00.002+08:00

today have VAF
took a 1 min film
was very funny lolx
i edited it from 1.30min
down to 1.10min
lolx continue editing next week
finish liao ask the cast
if they wan to b on the big screen
if wan i post XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

L4D

2009-05-14T22:33:00.000+08:00

link up wif one of my classmate and play L4D
was very funny la play on9 and alone
got BIG BIG different
alone is scary but wif fren
totally funny lolx

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

L4D

2009-05-14T20:41:00.000+08:00

just finish playing L4D with my classmate
damn funny lolx
my comp keep hanging due to violent gameplay
lolx
anyway will try to play again some other day XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Japanese Lesson

2009-05-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

3rd week of jap class
scored full marks for my first quiz ^.^
met my fren at fc5 after da lesson
went back together at around 8
i only 1 take bus la
reach home at 9
damn tired now 11 plus liao lolx
anyway tmr got CLS CA1
just hate it haven do yet
only print out the article lolx
tmr morning them do XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Funny vid

2009-05-12T11:55:00.003+08:00

have you watch the X-Men movie?
if u have u must b thinking
if i have their powers isnt it great?
well i dun think so and tis vid proof why
enjoy!~

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Crazy Lunch

2009-05-11T19:27:00.001+08:00

yet another day in sp and we lunch together
the topic we were real crazy
and we talk damn loud
lolx thx yo my fren hu spread his
"trojan worm" to us lolx
now our lunch r all v. high
lolx
we tok bout "trojan worm"
and "practical lessons"
and hell lots more lolx
lets see wads await tmr

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Class Blog

2009-05-10T21:03:00.001+08:00

YESSAH official launch of my class blog was yesterday
lolx spent the whole afternoon coding
and tis afternoon debuging everything
still trying to find the bugs
and to improve on it
currently it sux i think
lolx
relac will try to balance it
ASAP
and make it look nicer

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

F.O.R.

2009-05-09T15:10:00.002+08:00

went for for yesterday
not as exciting as i tot
spent afew hours emo at the beach
watching the tide rise
thinking and calulating the est
for the water to reach me
lolx

did some crazy stuff at there also
overall sianz

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Moives Watch tis week

2009-05-03T10:00:00.000+08:00

lolx on wednesday i watch 2 movie sia WOOHOO
watch detroit metal city first
then after my jap lesson went to watch
X-MEN YESSAH
Detroit Metal City
DAMN NICE LA THE SONG
just luv the satsugai
and FUCKINGHAM PALACE WOOHOO
X-men
the claws damn fake la
overall graphic is good
nice fighting style
cool effect
just tat the claw puts me off

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Sch today

2009-04-28T20:34:00.001+08:00

sch today was interesting
damn fun esp webp lolx
ppl hu sit next to me will know y hehe
anyway when to check my class listing
and i got into 1j3 YESSAH
now i am officially taking japanese
lesson WOOHOO
anyway saw tis post on my
sec sch cca blog
pls prepare urself b4 u read
cos u will b rofl halfway thru

SUPER HIGH INTENSITY TRAINING

In order to assure the highest levels of quality work and productivity from members, it will be our policy to keep all members well trained through our program of SUPER HIGH INTENSITY TRAINING (S.H.I.T)

We are trying to give our members more S.H.I.T than anyone else. If you feel that you do not receive your share of S.H.I.T on the course, please see the Chairman. You will be immediately placed at the top of the S.H.I.T list, and our Vice Chairman are especially skilled at seeing you get all the S. H. I. T. you can handle.

Members who don't take S. H. I. T. will be placed in DEPARTMENTAL EMERGENCY EVALUATION PROGRAM (D.E.E.P.S.H.I.T).

Those who fail to take D.E.E.P. S.H.I.T seriously will have to go to EXTRA ATTITUDE TRAINING (E.A.T.S.H.I.T). Since our Vice Chairman took S.H.I.T before they were promoted, they don't have to do S.H.I.T anymore, and are all full of S.H.I.T already. If you are full of S.H.I.T, you may be interested in a job teaching others. We can add your name to our BASIC UNDERSTANDING LIST of LEADERS (B.U.L.L.S.H.I.T).

For members who are intending to excel, we will refer you to the department of MANAGERIAL OPERATIONAL RESEARCH EDUCATION (M.O.R.E.S.H.I.T). This course emphasizes how to manage M.O.R.E. S.H.I.T

If you have further questions, please direct them to our HEAD OF TEACHING, Ko Kar Meng for our SPECIAL HIGH INTENSITY TRAINING (H.O.T.S.H.I.T).

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Ezlink card

2009-04-27T22:34:00.002+08:00

today went to activate my ezlink card
was damn stupid la
went to dover mrt station
tat guy say cannot
call me go clementi there do
so i went clementi interchange
tat guy say cannot
call me go mrt
i go mrt liao activate nid 10 dollar
then nvm i go take bus
go to the bus stop outside interchange
dun have the bus i went
so nid to go all da way back
to da interchange
totally sianz

100% orokasa (stupidity)

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

1 week of sch

2009-04-26T10:08:00.002+08:00

after one week of sch i finally rmb
my classmates face lolx
class was interest but its MORE interesting then i expected
signed up for jap lesson
now i can start learning jap the official way
WOOHOO

this week homework
1 script
1 bug list
10layout
2 photo

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

1 week after camp

2009-04-18T12:30:00.002+08:00

its been a week
still in camp mode
but i totally lost contact
with my group
SIA LA no one wanna chat with me la
i go one corner emo liao la
anyway sch going to start soon
so...
GD to myself T.T

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Camp testi and flag day

2009-04-17T11:29:00.002+08:00

i will scan it up and post so i think next post bah for camp testi XD

flag day
sia la i go pasir ris i no fund la
i complain to my fren liao then got one auntie give me
then after tat go ntuc
i sing ippo-e-tai-tai inside then another auntie gimme
sia la
then i follow them get fund from interchange
not much catch also
after tat go back BMSS
sia la my can from no weight be come damn heavy la
THX MR GOH FOR BRING MY CAN INSIDE OFFICE
AND EDWIN FOR GIVING EVERYTHING INSIDE UR WALLET
in the end i collect $42.65
A COME BACK TO SECOND PLACE WOOHOO

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

DMIT 0910 Part 3(final) + FOP

2009-04-15T20:41:00.002+08:00

a few last things bout the camp XD
our food cheer XD
here it goes
we cut
we chop
we slash
we cook
we stew
we boil
we chew
we chomp
we nimbler
WE WAN FOOD

and the next cheer

PARANG PARANG
WE CUT
WE CHOP
WE SLASH

now for other groups XD
COCONUT
WE WACK UR NUTS

MCBIRD
2 DOLLARS ONLY

BOTAK
WE CHIONG
WE FIGHT
WE... i cant remember psps

WAD CUP
D-CUP

D-CUP
SEREAN

SPONGEBOB
SQAUREPANTS

CARNAGE
i seriously cant remember i think is AL SOME

MADAGASCAR
WE LIKE TO
MOVE IT

tats all bout the camp XD

FOP

first day of fop nothing much
just 2 vids and some performance and stuff
went there as E1(emo 1)
waited at mrt for parangs to gather did some crazy stuff there

day 2
finally got to meet classmates XD
although i only know 4 others from the camp
also nothing much today

tmr
FLAG DAY
sia la nid to reach pasir ris by
0730hrs totally WTF?@!!@!@?#!@#?!@
but nvm got exp so not tat bad
but wad i reali look forward to was the party later on at 4.30
XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

DMIT 0910 Part 2

2009-04-13T10:13:00.002+08:00

ok tat day i stop at day 2 herma
tat pai sei thing we did was
at tat stop lvl 1 was to blow a balloon till its limits
tat one still ok just tat ppl will look it us
when it burst
lvl 2...
one of the station ic took out 2 packs of CONDOM
out of his pocket!!! WTF!@#$@#%@#$^@#$
then he said...
lvl 2 u nid to blow the condom to the limit
then we was like er... damn pai sei la...
after tat 2 of our parang did it shall not say hu
too pai sei liao
then they grab our shield away
so wei ern tried to talk to them
then they told him
u blow one condom and bring it all the way back to sch
if it nvr break we dun talk ur shield
so he did it -.-"|
then while going to the MRT station
a lady walk pass me and wei ern and said
"u see this boy play until nothing play now blow condom play"
i was like er... wei ern got ppl saying bout ur...
SIA LA really like WTF lor
then back to sch they still take our shield...
cos last station which we have no time to go nid to have
THE SHIELD TAKEN AWAY!!!

after tat dinner damn WTF also
some long beans tat will make u puke and some chicken cutlet
in the end stuff everything in and hold the puke XD

after tat
shaman game WOOHOO freaking fun
first stop we rush into hot zone DMIT block
got hell lots of point in there lor XD
after tat we went other places forgot where
on the way me and wei ern keep making funny sound la
then the rest was like... omg wad was tat LOLX
in the end we hid inside the lecture room
then got a msg to go back so we did
and tat marks the end of day 2

btw during the azmaning race me eugene and arfian tot
of a so called song for our group

theres echo after every verse
PARANG PARANG KEEP UP THE TEMPO
PARANG PARANG A-O-0-A-O
HERE WE GO AGAIN
LETS SING OUT CHEER AGAIN
UP AND DOWN THIS AVENUE
1 MORE DAY AND WE'LL BE THROUGH
PARANG PARANG PARANG HEY
PARANG PARANG PARANG HEY
(then i extra) PARANG LETS ROCK THE HOUSE
(everyone will go)WOOHOO

then we also have our warcry
some one will shout PARANG
then we will say I KILL YOU
lolx

Day 3
woke up pack up and sentosa here we go XD

b4 tat breakfast BREAD sux
and we change our warcry from PARANG I KILL YOU to PARANG WE LOVE YOU

first stop at there Frisbee
we scored 0 pt throughout
AND ITS A DRAW WOOHOO

lunch rice with poiang with yun tung with meat with vege
BEST MEAL EVER!!! sry bout all the wrong spelling my spelling sux

then play station games
first stop dice game
higher number one get to splash water on the later number one
i first to go i got 5 i think the IC got 3 then i grab the water and chase her
then i going to splash her tat time my hand slip and the bottle flew out but
I STILL MANAGE TO SPLASH SOME WATER ON HER WOOHOO
but still nid to do forfeit
we nid to get into the water and do the WORMMMMMM
arfian was first then me then shi hui then i dunno hu at the back
next stil sand tomb lolx
we nid to bury a guy and a gal
not the head of cos
sky and corrine was in the tomb XD
will post the pic when i have them
third station was at the other beach
damn freaking far la cannot take tram
then i walk bare footed all the way
third station was related with a stick
any guess? we have to go round the stick 10 times
then walk to a bucket take a cup and pour the water into
the bottle inside the bucket
i was the fourth i think
while i was spining i keep falling lor
it was like go halfway i shouted WTH WHY GOT ONE HOLE HERE DE
lolx in the end i finish spining i walk to the bucket took the cup and
deliver all the water into the bottle nothing when out of the bucket
then i was like sia la i can do this sia lolx
when everyone finish
wei ern said he wanna do it so we let him
then eugene and simoun supported him to keep him from falling
go went 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 9 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
lolx damn funny sia he leak everything
then he said
sia la i dunno wad happen sia i tot 10 round then i go round and round
plus someone keep spinning me
LOLX
after tat forfeit again -.-"|
cos there was like a mini fountain around the area
so we where ask to do the 2 little ducklings at the centre
so we did it and alot of ppl watching us sia

after tat is station 4 rite at the very end of the beach so we walk there
on the way eugene pass the shield to wei ern
then we reach station 4 liao it was 100 sec no NG
1st task say out
How much wood would a woodchuck chuck. If a woodchuck could chuck wood
2nd task drink
the so called "expansive tea"
which was soya source

3rd task throw da ball

4th maths

5th page flip

we manage to do all of tat in out 5th try XD
then we realise where our shield
then we saw 3 peacock walk pass and wei ern was like sia la where our shield
the peacock took it
so he chase after them
then we was like wheres the stupid peacock wheres the stupid peacock wheres the stupid peacock which took out shield
lolx

then we decided not to care bout the shield cos if it lost its lost
if it has been taken then so be it
then due to time issue we walk all the way back not doing the last 2 station
then we clean ourself up and took our stuff and headed back to sch
was 8pm at tat time saw the bus clock
on the way went pass yess center
then i ask wei ern why opposite us ah the yess center dun have the ah
to become YESS-AH center?
then he started laughing out loud lor wtf?
then i ask him y keep laughing and he said sia la u very random lor

back at sch not bed time yet was the shim contest XD
our shim damn chio lor so chio tat i see liao feel like puking
he wore a bra still not say whose it belongs to
2 water ballon as breast
a tube mini skirt
alwell then got the shim contest damn funny
every one was LOL throughout the shim contest show
then wei ern han feng and shi hui also join in
wei ern dress up like a sch girl
GUESS WAD HE LIKES
WATCHING HENTAI WHERE THE GUYS GET WHIP
LOLX
but b4 he can fishing cheesepie UP SKIRT HER LOLX
lucky he got a toy dog to help cover
then han feng came it dress like a singer
also kana up skirt
but he called up james (botak man)
and they do the F-ing motion on stage
then shi hui came in she was the mama san for the shim
and the ship all of them XD
all 10 of the shim where whip but there was a extra
cheesepie also got whip XD and a fuking nice whip was drilled into his butt XD
after tat we when into a room with a table in the center
then we hear ppl breaking light stick behind us so we where like oi got ppl behind hor dun kana scared by them
but in the end all the gl put up a dance for us then the lights were gone
a while later PARTY TIME WOOHOO was appear to be da ghost was the BOOM BOX
CLUBING TIME so i dance like mad la from 12am i think it started
endure all the way till 4.45am then got KOed 4 hours and 45 mins of clubing
freaking crazy
and tats day 3

oh and b4 tat remember i say y i freaking smelly on day 3?
BECOS I HUG 2 DAMN SWEATY GUY WITH MASK AND I WAS VERY SWEATY MYSELF TOO
when i hug them i was like WALAO U FREAKING WET LOR
anyway tats the end

Day 4
nothing much
woke up wash up
and pack up
whole day 4 was taken pics
and writing comments
and prize giving XD
alwell the end of DMIT 0910

lets sum up the warcry and all

Warcry 1
PARANG
I KILL U

Warcry 2
PARANG
WE LOVE U

Song 1
PARANG
(some rhythm)
CANT TOUCH US

Song 2
PARANG PARANG KEEP UP THE TEMPO
PARANG PARANG A-O-0-A-O
HERE WE GO AGAIN
LETS SING OUT CHEER AGAIN
UP AND DOWN THIS AVENUE
1 MORE DAY AND WE'LL BE THROUGH
PARANG PARANG PARANG HEY
PARANG PARANG PARANG HEY
(then i extra) PARANG LETS ROCK THE HOUSE
(everyone will go)WOOHOO

ok tats all lets await the photos

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

DMIT 0910 Part 1

2009-04-10T13:49:00.003+08:00

yesterday came back from DMIT 0910 camp
tis yr team is survivor
WOOHOO!!!

Day 1

i freaking early la paper say reach at 2
then i reach at 1230 la
one choco bar for lunch
then sit till like 1.35 like da then
got ppl come then go up DIT block
done some admin stuff then play
good afternoon game
wheres my 50cent coin
after tat move to food court 6
for our grouping and to get our so called
"mama" and "papa"

our mama is shi hui
papa is wei ern
heres our group members
me
corrine the very high girl
cui yun the silence one
hui ching the sporty girl
arfian the big guy
eugene the moral
zheng jie the gay XD(no offend if u see tis)
sky no comment
simoun the wanderer
toby is a gd boy XD

after spliting up in group we play the
gd afternoon game
then have azmaning race
first stop is in a room
play cross the river
second stop is...
cant really remember la
i think is DIT lvl 3 play the tangle game
then go down to the study here play the fit in the square game
after tat is... aiya cant remember la i just say out the rest of the game
cross the string
wack o
then got eat tomato one
cant remember got 2 more
after tat dinner
lemon chicken was on the menu
then design shield for our group PARANG!
first group cheer is
PARANG
(some rhythm)cant touch us!
then go put our bag packs

after tat say ghost story and have nite walk
the walk was so funny
the ghost come out we go disturb the ghost
or either they under the cloth then we go pull
anyway alma was on the red bridge
the ring was on the bridge
btw the walk so v. long so cant say out the whole route out
if u wanna know can msn me i tell u the whole story
then the ending point was our bunk
so reach bunk liao we slp
actually already day 2 la cos over 12 but lets consider gd slp time then next day

day 2
woke up then bath
freaking smelly but not as bad as day 3 later then tell u y
have breakfast which is rice chicken wing and srame egg
ps bout wrong spelling
then have azmaning race
first stop basketball court
play pass the ball
second stop is...
below food court 4 i think
then go library play
act out the word
then go aiya dunno wher liao la just noe after tat
go paint our face near the mrt station there
then go to bugis with our painted face for some games
then go near suntec there
then go ps
then go herma
damn pai sei lor later then say
now nid to work will carry on soon XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

This week progress...

2009-04-05T23:43:00.002+08:00

when to watch hotel for dogs on wed...
when wif 3 fren...
cried towards the ending...
thus...
fren come my house have fun...
following 3 days...
work work and more work...

Heres something to enjoy

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Soul Eater!

2009-04-01T09:29:00.002+08:00

Sianz soul eater last ep T.T
ep 51 marks the end of a great anime
the ending was so nice T.T
hope that there is a ova for it T.T

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okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Tired!~ + Sianz!~ = NO LIFE!~

2009-03-29T08:35:00.002+08:00

Tried...
Sianz...
i got no life...
everyday doing the same thing over and over again...
nothing new...
anyone can save me from tis cycle?
its either eat sleep play comp
or work eat sleep
T.T i very sianz

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Current Progress...

2009-03-18T23:30:00.002+08:00

11mar went to sp buy laptop
now got my big and small wife le
hehe

yesterday went to AVA camp...
morning theory noon mac lunch
totally free de XD
then go comp lab play worms
tournament i won 8 out of 10 matches
hehe

today went for my sp camp briefing...
start at 2 but i reach at 1.30
then invited to play games
in the end we play till 4.30 then start briefing
alwell after tat went back home XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Life so far...

2009-03-03T19:49:00.002+08:00

well... it totally sux
done my poly pre-enrollment stuff already
but work sux like hell
customers treat staff like their maid
-.-"|
they either like no hands or no legs
and some ask very stupid question like
r u a staff here?
its like cant u see im wearing the staff uni?
zzz

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

O result

2009-01-13T09:45:00.000+08:00

yesterday take o lvl result and i can go to the courses i wanted WOOHOO

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Class chalet & Ponyo

2009-01-12T10:49:00.005+08:00

from 3rd to 5th jan

3rd jan:
i went for mi class chalet 3rd jan: on my way there
i did a very stupid thing i took the bus and go one round near downtown east
then go back interchange and took the same bus again
after tat reach there liao play some games
when nid water but not in the swimming pool
whichh is at our door step XD
alwell heres a little something tat happen b4 i reach XD

any way survive the first night without slping

4th jan:
earli in the morning 4am start playing cards
then at around 8am BBQ XD
afternoon when to downtown east there play arcade
owned the new cube game
saw 2 primary sch student own the dunk machine
around 400-700 points per play
we only got 200++
then play racing games
edward budget kok boon race with ben but all lost
edward and ben race was the best
edward met with a acident and ben went ahead with a 300 meter +++ distance
then edward use gear 1 chase up
imba rite but in the end edward almost win ben...
just a bit more edward win already
around 3 back from arcade all the boys took a dip in the pool XD
5pm all surface and bath then go eat dinner

5th jan:
last day!!! morning nothing left to eat!!!
so when downtown east to eat after book out...
tats all for the chalet

Pics:

11th jan:
when to watch ponyo with giap
great show nice story
and LUV THE SONG
WOOHOO

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Bolt!~

2008-12-16T09:42:00.004+08:00

watch bolt yesterday with arashi and his bro
nice show... alot of sad part and hell lot of funny part...
overall i will rate a 8 out of 10
cos the ending part when bolt found his person...
too little action...

sianz sia... today got the work...
can... just... barely... open... m...my... eyes...

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

sianz

2008-12-14T09:16:00.002+08:00

today is the fourth day of continuous work
damn tried...
already have 2 targets that im scared to attend to
haiz...
will be postiong the POP pics asap when i get it

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

ZzZzZz...

2008-12-12T08:55:00.001+08:00

just woke up after slamming my face on the wall...
pain sia... now still v. sleepy but got to work T.T

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow And The Day After Tomorrow

2008-12-11T23:31:00.005+08:00

Yesterday:
went to watch my bro POP at tekong(ps if wrong spelling)
the paper write by 1.30 must reach
but the parade start at 4.
wth rite...
after tat went back home

Steps Taken: 5352
Distance Covered: 4.5km

today:
work...
work...
and more work...
explaining some products to the customers
and recommending some stuff to them...
and learn how to handle some stuff

Step taken: 17221
Distance: 15.3km

Tomorrow:
got to work...
dunno will have wad kind of customers...
hope everything go well...

The Day After Tomorrow:
of cos i dunno wad will happen XD
also same thing la... hope everything went smooth smooth XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Working in Progress...

2008-12-09T09:39:00.001+08:00

these few days working at popular...
pay is gd
although i still dunno wad to do sometimes...
and get damn bored when theres no bell ring
and no goods come in...
alwell... i kana like it anyway...
just that everyday the step taken is equal to
walking 13km plus...
tats all still got to work cya...

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

End of Nov. Start of Dec.

2008-12-01T10:53:00.002+08:00

12am today is the end of nov but the start of dec...
well...
after living 16years and 11days and 10hours in this world...
i still dun get y am i alive...
i sux at everything...
i have no confident at all...
i cant get well with boys...
everywhere i go...
ppl hated me...
i just cant get things rite...
even when i was playing dota yesterday...
i wanna help my mates kill roshan but...
kana scolded at the end...
serously...
feel like putting down the backpack on my shoulder...
and just... close my eyes...
i dun give a damn if i can reach my dream...
to be the creator of the next revolution of gaming...
i dun care anymore...
i just wanna...
lay on the ground...
and just...
fade away...

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Chosing Parts...

2008-11-27T23:49:00.000+08:00

My fren comp just died...
well... not reali die but...
close to dead...
anywhere now i selecting parts for my fren
but the mouse and keyboard cost a bomb already
lol
anyway will make it below 2k if possible XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Seconday School is OVER!!!

2008-11-26T19:50:00.005+08:00

now that my secondary sch life is over...
i think i should listen to this song XD
enjoy!~
Gwar - SCHOOL's OUT
the part where the teacher come in is nice XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Lordi's MV

2008-11-25T19:40:00.004+08:00

Would You Love A Monsterman

Devil Is A Loser

Blood Red Sandman - Beware Of The Ending...
Embed Disabled so pls watch it here

Hardrock Hallelujah - MUST WATCH!!!!!
Embed Disabled so pls watch it here

Who's Your Daddy
Embed Disabled so pls watch it here

It Snow In Hell

Bite It Like A Bulldog - MUST WATCH!!!!!

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Last yr in BMSS

2008-11-24T13:42:00.008+08:00

well... this yr is my last yr in bmss
there were gd times and bad times in bmss
but... i guess i will miss alot of ppl...
first of all AVA club!!!

this is only from the sec 3 , 2 and 1
too bad at that time preparing for o lvl
cannot go play T.T

secondly my class and teachers

not forgeting S.H.E

and one last thing NCC XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

Lordi

2008-11-21T18:29:00.003+08:00

lordi has their 2008 ablum WOOHOO!!!
u must b thinking hu the hell is lordi
well lordi is a rock band from finland
and their song ROX!!!
personal fav of lordi song:
hard rock hallelujah
whose your daddy
bite it like a bulldog
deadache
monster keep me company
missing miss charlene
hate at first sight
theres a devil behind her smile
evilyn

MUST LISTEN:
HARD ROCK HALLELUJAH
BITE IT LIKE A BULLDOG
MISSING MISS CHARLENE

make sure u listen to these song
btw hard rock hallelujah is track 2 at my music playlist
XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

New Skin

2008-11-14T23:24:00.003+08:00

saw my fren inuyasha skin...
so i tot i so long nvr change skin liao
so i change it lol
this is my 13th skin now lol XD

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

a new path awaits...

2008-11-12T20:12:00.002+08:00

yesterday mark the end of my o lvl exams
i guess i should be happy bout that
but...
i dun think that im anywhere near happy
in fact...
im sad
cos end of o lvl may mean that it will be the last
time im gonna see some of my frens
and we'll be going our own paths now

although i dun quite like u all but...
it sure brings back memories...
the wonderful times we have...

but before our time together end..
i would like to say one thing...

i'm sorry for all the stuff i did that piss u guyz off

but remember this

memories of the past... strength for the future...

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...

my birthday

2008-11-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

today is my b-day XD
well who cares anyway
only 3 of my frens remembered
alwell what pass has pass
at least i know i still have
3 fren out there hu remember my b-day
lol?

お帰り。。。皆さん。。。
okaeri... minasan...
welcome home... everyone...